staywithme

2008-12-09T18:25:00.000-08:00

BABY YOU'RE EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE!*

i'll walk this road with you...
i love you<3>

2008-12-08T17:48:00.000-08:00

Alright alright i know i've been missing for a couple of days blogging but whatever... i'm here now. Phew! finally had a long weeekend after weeks!!! But we all know that we will never get enough of holidays! Esp when you can spend quality time with your love one. Met up with baby at Whitesands on sat and head to my place. HAHA we slacked throughout the whole day at home watching shows and eating and talking. HAHA you people might think its boring but NOOOOOO!!!!! Its the awesome-est thing ever doing with your love one. We had dinner out after that at Downtown east CHEESE FRIES AND KARBARB! WOOHOO! I swear its the best food a canoeist can have when they have season break. After this week, our food will not be CHEESE FRIES! It will be.... hmmm don't la boring food i guess. But its okay. So after that we walked around and head home after that.
HEHEH lay in bed and have our heart to heart talk enjoying each others company and seeing her sleeping so soundly in my arms.

"CHIP CHIP!" The next morning we woke up laze on the bed and then we decided to go for our breakfast! HAHA WE HAD MAC!!!! WOOHOO! So after breakfast we head to baby's place and met up with her mommy and daddy. Though its kinda scary but after that it was alright. They're awesome and mommy's dinner was awesome too. Had some time with baby after that and head home.

I swear ystd was one of the day i woke up late. Stayed home and read up for ut before meeting my precious girl. Met up baby at yeetee and head to her place. Cooked a simple dinner and i hope baby, you enjoy it. ^^ Went to baby's friend's BBQ then head home AND NOW I'M IN SCHOOL! PPTTFFFFF! WHAT A DRAG! its ok 3 MORE DAYS!!!

Baby. i hoped you enjoy your weekend because i did. I Love You Baby Girl! I will always be there for you no matter what. I know you got alot of things in hands now. Your new post, trainings and school work. I understand baby. Whatever it is as we say, will work our way throught together managed every single thing step by step. One step at a time... I'll hold you tightly and never let you go. NEVER! You're someone so special to me. And you know we are gonna make our dreams come through. We're gonna be together now and forever. I miss you badly baby girl.

I love you baby<3

2008-12-03T19:32:00.000-08:00

Last night was awesome! HEHE went out to town with baby girl after her training. Had dinner at J8 then head down to town to look up for webcam. BABY's so sweet. Then a walk to the Esplande. God i enjoyed every single moment we had. OH OH I FINALYY HAD ICE CREEAM YESTERDAY! WOOHOO! I'M A HAPPY MAN. THANK YOU BABY! So yea we went up to the Esplande roof top, sat there and we chatted all night long. With the wonderful sight and the awesome weather and ofcos the BEST thing ever! MY BABY GIRL. I really wish i can STOP TIME!!! We can just do that all day. I love you baby. My pretty wife. I'm so lucky having you my baby! YOU'RE THE BEST! YAY! Won't be able to see baby for this two days... :( but yes baby, i can't wait to see you soon!

Anyway, i'm making my way down to the gym today! YES! I need to gym. A week without gym my muscles are just as good as jellies. So yes i need to train today.

BABY I LOVE YOU!!! <3

2008-12-01T19:07:00.000-08:00

AWW... SO CUTE!

The Fattest GINGERBREAD MAN...

I LOVE YOU BABY!

HAHA skipped school yesterday and accompany baby! TIME PAST REALLY FAST WHEN YOU'RE HAVING FUN AND ITS ISN'T FAIR!!! I wish i have a remote control to stop time and to spend time with my pretty baby 24/7. ARRGGGHHH... i miss you baby! I cherish every moment we spent. IM THE LUCKIEST GUY EVER!!!! WOOHOO! I LOVE YOU BABY! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING HONEY!

I'll walk along with you step by step as each steps we take will only make us stronger...

28.11.08<3

2008-11-30T17:13:00.000-08:00

K4 SLIVER CREW! YEAR 1s

WOOHOO!

FINALLY A BREAK! PHEW! POLITE IS OVER and YES WE WON WITH GLORY!!! RPC SA!!!

Its was an event that noone could forget about it. Races where all really tight and emotions plays apart to all too. It was a day that would stay with me. The day where i first race. It was pretty scary but i guess its my stepping stone of canoe life. Many of us teared. Tear of joy and sadness. It was really really a unforgettable day. Most of all the team was really bonded. We encourage and had our souls in whoever who competed. We are all like a family. OVERALL CHAMPS PEOPLE! WE DESERVE IT! WOOHOO! hehe K4 sliver for me! And MOST OF ALL THANK YOU BABY FOR BEING THERE FOR ME! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING! I LOVE YOU BABY!

i've gotta say SP you guys have awesome sportsman ship and it was really a nice race. Congrats!

2008-11-27T06:43:00.000-08:00

yea u've said it! Polite is jus ONE MORE DAY and many many hours! I can't wait and i can't wait to see the end result. Well ofcos a happy one. Had our last training at Macritchie today and we had a team dinner last evening. HAHA i must say i guess we all enjoyed. Took photos and joke around making fools of ourselves and not forgetting that we will always have to disturb Yong Annn no matter where we go. The memories in Macritchie will always be with me HAHA and my first race ever. Make it or break it... its all in my hands and i'll say" LETS MAKE SATURDAY OUR DAY!!! REPUBLIC CANOE SA! SA! SA!"
will upload pics when i'm free... which will be after polite...
till then
cya!

2008-11-11T20:54:00.001-08:00

RAAAAAHHHH... i'm so damn super tired man... Lack of sleep really kill!!!!!! Anyway, life is stil still still the same. Hee only with her in my life which added a huge sparks in my life. I love her... Alright so now i'm in class and its LUNCH BREAK. Wonder why am i not eating? Because somehow i'm not hungry and i only ate that lil in the morning. ARRGGGHH whats wrong with you tummy? HAHA and oh wed is the most boring day like EVER! Firstly, its science. Secondly, during the middle of the week, i'm all tired out already. Thirdly, my peeps arent in school because they are year 2 and year 2 has got no school on WEDNESDAY!!! Okay i shall get over it. Pffttt...
I can't wait till fri man...
Yesterday was water training and i guess it one training down more to come and yes i wanna be 10secs faster then my time trial time before POLITE. 10 SECS!!! SIGH
Ystd was Alzee birthday too. And he didnt come down for training! He's gonna be dead today! BOY YOU ARE GONNA SO GET WET LATER! HAHA ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! (BELATED)

Alright, last but not least I MISS YOU BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!! T.T I can't wait to see you!

HEEE...

TODDLES...

I CHERISH EVERY SINGLE MOMENT WE SPEND...

2008-11-03T18:50:00.000-08:00

oppsss... ermmm we were to hot! HAHA

Ken, you see what i see? i see our future... HAHA

and so you know where he end up...

2008-11-03T07:41:00.001-08:00

so had dinner with family ysdt at Crystal Jade Palace Resturant

It was bro's birthday so had no choice but to show up anyway i guess the food was awesome though its cost like close to $200. Hardly have any family photos though so yea took some ystd...

Anyway happy 24th birthday ass...

2008-11-02T19:08:00.000-08:00

oh anyway, yesterday was the first day of paddling in Macritchie. Water was light and clear. Paddlers was all in shape and i guess me in a tiger K1 seems to them like a new noob in canoeing. Weather was humid and sunny. A lining at the starting point ready and set for the 1K sprint set. I guess seeing and knowing how i did yesterday, i have to work really hard. Even though i sick, i guess its not an excuse. Debrief, and 13K paddling to adapt to the enviroment there. Macritchie, i am down to battle not to give in. but how? sigh... i need to correct my mistake esp my retard left arm which doesnt seem to listen to me and to straighten. Freak arm man... i can do it during land stroking but not on the water. This coming sat will be the time trial on the events we are taking for polite... Me and Daryl will have a showdown on K1 and a T1 time trial with Cm lastly, K2 with my partner Daryl. Hopefully he could be able to turn up. We need to win and win big. My body is still failing me. I still feel weak. AARRGGHHH... come on nic. COME ON!!!

2008-11-02T17:43:00.000-08:00

alright so... its the first day of school after the one week of holiday which was packed with trainings after trainings. I guess nothing can go any better here though. Class is still the same old thing. And im down with flu... flet like am fainting and weak... ARRRGGGHHH i dont like this feeling. Alright training later and im not sure if im fit enough for it later... Should i force myself and just not care? Maybe i would. Anyway, the day will be the same until something happen so... yea. i've got nth much for you guys...

TEAM MATES who are as equally sick as me pls recover soon and take awesome care...

2008-11-02T04:45:00.000-08:00

finally, the end of a whole week of holiday intensive training but more to come even when school reopens... some pictures took though there are more... anyway i guess thats all for today. aint in a mood to blog though...

2008-10-31T00:19:00.000-07:00

A total of 6 days of trainings including sat and sun having at total of 11 sessions consisting of both water and land. And tmr will another sat training. I finally realise and woke up from what i have been seeing. I guess if things are meant to be, it will be. After talking to cath about it last night, i guess i know what to do though i still have some thoughts in my head left with all the question marks. Anyway, that aside. Had some of my teammates over to my place. Or i should say like 12 of them. I guess it was a chill out night just slacking, watching DVDs and ofcos all the talks we usually had. I guess i have to say im sorry becos my room cant really fit all of them though they still managed to sleep like though they were in a sardin can. And also, people pls take care. Lots of us are down with flu. I HATE IT becos i cant sleep in peace. Had Mac breakfast in the morning and off they go. Some to work and some, home to catch up with their sleep just like me. Anyway, i cant wait to train at Macritchie for the whole one month until POLITE ends. Its really time for us to forcus and for me to fight it all out. I ain't gonna let whatever matters or problems effect me in my trainings. POLITE POLITE POLITE... stressful hearing these word. It gives me a fear in waking up knowing that i cant screw any of my trainings but only to be focus 110% and nothing less. Events for juniors aint confirm and i don't really know which events i'm going down but i know i'm going for two events and i will fight together with my team. Even if it takes me to drop and die. For the team. Not sure if i'm meeting the usual peeps in town later or not, i'm not really feeling that well. But then again its the last few days of the 1 week holiday. How irritatting could it be. So i guess we shall see about it or maybe i should just wait for their call.

2008-10-28T06:08:00.000-07:00

Alright so... how about 3 sessions of training in a day? Well, just one word.... "CHUI" haha but its worthwhile. As the saying says " No pain, No gain" isn' it? COOL DEAL... hmm nevermind i'm alil crazy. Anyway gtg man. Needa sleep...

Oh haha what can i say?

What can i say again about the girls in our team??? HAHA

2008-10-27T08:22:00.000-07:00

20 set times 500m on sunday was a KILLER!!!

today was alright but, more to come tmr and the rest of the days till thurs then will have a rest on fri and the same thing on sat and sun and mon and tues and wed... seems scary to me if you would ask me but no pain no gain isnt it? I aint giving up! SAME GOES THE REST OF MY TEAM! So had training the went for lunch and decided to head to downtown slacked and watched tropical thunder. It was funny for most of us but we doubt yongann finds in funny becos he had his mind filled with question marks HAHA...

but before movies be and hairul head down to whitesands to get our hair cut and rush back to downtown again. Then bought food for dinner and NTUC. We bought pasta and so on... Head to my place after the movie and cooked. HAHAH MASSIVE No. of people the in kitchen. Havent been cooking for such a long time. I think the last time i cooked was for my ex girlfriend... Which i dont think i wanna mention more about it. We had our carbo loading and mashed potatos. Love them man. All in all a good day i will say... but i miss her real badly sigh...

Alright needa rest!!!

2008-10-25T05:15:00.000-07:00

Alright so here goes sat trg session. And its CHUI!!! I guess theres more to come. HAAA FOR SURE! Anyway, skipped work today due my sleepless night. Went for an awesome lunch once again then head home and had a nap till mum nugde me up for dinner. HAHA somehow i was suprise with the food mum and dad cook. SUPER WESTERN TODAY MAN. HAHA i guess thats because of my "not coming home for meals for like months...." It was an awesome meal and a very filling one. "Burp!" Had a nice shower... What a weekend huh? Dont get all so jealous because i will only have this treatment like once in a blue moon. So yeah! Anyway had photoshoots today after those crazy traingings. And i guess i won't be able to upload it because the size of it is too big though i'm yet to get those pictures. If i'm able to i will for my next post. HAHA alright i need to rest and get all boost up for trainings and work for tmr and throughout my "HOLIDAY". Like what coach said to me today " You have to get all BOOST up for POLITE!!!" ARRGGGHHHH i'm gonna paddle every shit in my head out and till i drop dead...

i'm missing you madly
i wonder where you are...
pls let me see you soon
i look down each time i'm alone...

2008-10-23T18:57:00.000-07:00

life has been complicated this couple of days. i guess it isn't good. short temper and sleepless night. I wish not to think about it. but i guess its easier said then done... whats happening? whats going on? she just came into my life in a blink of an eye. buy why? im falling. falling deep... but im afraid. im afraid of the pain i'm afraid that i might fall hard back on the ground. I thought i saw a light putting back my past. But somehow, i'm still in a dark tunnel just seeing lil holes of light spearing through. Who am i to you? The relationship between us isn't as easy as friends... why must it be so complicated... i miss you so badly... i can't text i can't spent time with u everyday the only thing we could communicate is by msn... Why are we going through all this... you took my breath away kissing me... im really missing you.... all i can do is to think of you.... i wish i could tell the complicity to you my friends but i doubt so. Whatever....

i guess this could explain what i'm going through...

Two 'o Clock And I Wish That I Was Sleeping
You're In My Head Like A Song On The Radio
All I Know Is That I Got To Get Next To You
Yeah I Got To Get Next To You
Sitting Here Turning Minutes Into Hours
To Find The Nerve Just To Call You On The Telephone
You Don't Know That I Got To Get Next To You

[chorus]
Maybe Were Friends
Maybe Were More
Maybe It's Just My Imagination
But I See You Stare Just A Little Too Long
And It Makes Me Start To Wonder
So Baby Call Me Crazy
But I Think You Feel It Too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just Got To Get Next To You

I Asked Around And I Heard That You Were Talking
Told My Girl That You Thought I Was Out Of Your League
What A Fool, I Got To Get Next To You, Whoa
Yeah It's Five In The Morning And I Can't Go To Sleep
'cause I Wish, Yeah I Wish That You Knew What You Mean To Me
Baby Let's Get Together And End This Mystery, Oh

[chorus]
Maybe Were Friends
Maybe Were More
Maybe It's Just My Imagination
But I See You Stare Just A Little Too Long
And It Makes Me Start To Wonder
So Baby Call Me Crazy
[ Next To You lyrics from http://www.lyricsyoulove.com/ ]
But I Think You Feel It Too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just Got To Get Next To You

Whatcha Got To Say? Whatcha Got To Do?
How Ya Get The One You Want To Want To Get Next To You?

Whatcha Got To Say? Whatcha Got To Do?
How Ya Get The One You Want To Want To Get Next To You?

Whatcha Got To Say? Whatcha Got To Do?
How Ya Get The One You Want To Want To Get Next To You?

Whatcha Got To Say? Whatcha Got To Do?
How Ya Get The One You Want To Want To Get Next To You?
Yeah, Yeah, To Want To Get Next To You

[chorus]
Maybe Were Friends
Maybe Were More
Maybe It's Just My Imagination
But I See You Stare Just A Little Too Long
And It Makes Me Start To Wonder
So Baby Call Me Crazy
But I Think You Feel It Too
Baby Call Me Crazy
But I Know You Feel It Too
Maybe I, Maybe I
Just Got To Get Next To You
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
I Got To Get Next To You

2008-10-21T21:29:00.000-07:00

Aslyn - That's When I Love You Lyrics
When you have to look awayWhen you dont have much to sayThats when I love youI love you, just that wayTo hear you stumble when you speakOr see you walk with two left feetThats when I love youI love you, endlesslyAnd when your mad cuz you lost a gameForget Im waiting in the rainBaby i love you,I love you anywayHeres my promise made tonightYou can count "on" me for lifeThats when i love youWhen nothing you do can change my mindThe more I learn, The more I loveThe more my heart cant get enoughThats when I love you,WhenI love you no matter whatSo when you turn to hide your eyesCause the movie it made you cryThats when I love youI love you a little more each timeAnd when you cant quite match your clothesOr when you laugh at your own jokesThats when I love youI love you, more than youll knowAnd when you forget that we had a dateOr that look that you get when you show up lateBaby I love you, I love you anywayHeres my promise made tonightYou can count "on" me for lifeThats when i love youWhen nothing you do can change my mindThe more I learn, The more I loveThe more my heart cant get enoughThats when I love you,When I love you no matter whatThats when I love youWhen nothing babyNothing you do could change my mindThe more I learn, The more I loveThe more my heart cant get enoughThats when I love you,When I love you no matter whatNo matter what...

who am i to you?.........................

2008-10-21T08:12:00.000-07:00

alright another day of ponning school... i just feel so lazy to move my butt to school. ITS SO FREAKING FAR!!! PARIS RIS TO WOODLANDS!!! i'm so sick of it man. SO SICK OF LOVE SONG... HAHA thats a song. Anyway went for NUM interview then have lunch and then head to school to meet the rest of my team to take the weekly ride. HAHA damn it reach LSR cat 1 till 7pm. So we couldn't paddle then we configure our boats and some were watching something interesting on their laptop. HAHA shhh secret! So after all that me and mat accompany ass to the coffee shop for his dinner and head home. haa life isnt that interesting afterall huh?

i wanna train hard~ i have to ~
train till i fall...

2008-10-19T22:51:00.000-07:00

alright so much so that i'm feeling to tired and sleepy i actually skipped class like now. Its not a smart choice but i know if i carry on this way and i'm gonna have trianing later, i will be a dead chicken. I NEED MORE REST! Anyway, if wanna ask me hows life? my answer to that question will still be the same. It has always been like that... <--- haha this sentence reminds me of somebody... Anyway, i spend my whole sunday eating awesome Mexician food and Mr Glosz' place and drinking but you know being me skipping sunday training i kinda felt uncomfortable about it. so yea but this kinda thing are like once a year. So yup... I must say i ate alot. At times i just wonder am i walking out of the past? I dont know or the past is still hunting me? Whats with all the thinking through of the past memories and sadness that i've gone through. Let it go will be what i think but what about my feeling deep inside? How come i still feel the ache whenever i think of it... Can you please send the future to me? when do you wanna let me wait till or when will you stop punishing me because of the past? YOU HEAR ME UP THERE? WHEN WHERE HOW??? i live life with no regrets??? i dont think so... How come i have to do something just to not think about anything and some people don't? How come i have to keep things deep inside and others have their another half to talk to and share with? Life is never fair and have never been fair screw it. Sorry guys i just need to rant it and i will feel alright... Anyway, i will put my full concentration on later's training. to RPC JUNIOR TEAM: Guys, Polite is really just round the corner. I know it means alot to you guys. I just wish that we can go through all this tough time together and win what we aim for. We come so far together and i guess we wish to see tears of joy that all our effort paid off. Training is tough i agree but we still endure it agree? I just wish to see the team grow into a better stronger team. I know we can do it because all we need is to do it and really really put our 101% of hardwork. See you guys later in training. I wish to see all of you guys. Take care and rest well.

nicholas...

the weekly bus ride....

2008-10-16T06:55:00.000-07:00

HAHA tmr will be MR & MS SIT... Gees can't wait to see the winners.
As you can see it will be @ W1 Student Lounge 12pm so people please be down there to support esp my friend name NG YONG ANN... Well, you can see his irritating smile on the picture i post... OPPS! Just joking. But yea do come down esp RP CANOEIST! We shall see NG YONG ANN CAT WALK AND DO HIS 2.5 MINS OF FAME!!!!!! LMAO!!!
I SWAER I WILL LAUGHING OUT LOUD FOR YOU YONG ANN!!!

2008-10-15T06:52:00.001-07:00

SIGH... whats wrong with me today?
just felt so pissed and frustrated whenever i can't do well in training.
thinking of ways just to increase the speed of my boat.
Imaginating and thinking of race plans.
But whatever happen today will never scare me not to paddle nomore.
it will only make me stronger...

2008-10-12T20:03:00.000-07:00

TODAY's communication... GEEE don't really like that faci and i'm feeling very shag and sleepy... Ystd training was kinda killer??? Sat's training was too. I trained till i went blackout man. Amazing! Not at all. But yea what doesn't kill will only make you stronger. Anyway theres training today. Looking forward to it??? Hmmm well, i do but its just that i'm breaking apart soon. PPPFFTT! Well training hard will better pay off well... HOPEFULLY! haha anyway, went out after training ystd with mat, ken, dom, yuyu, cath, rainie and yudi. But only me mat ken yuyu cath yudi and rainie went to HAJI LANE to have dinner. I swear we had a very late dinner due to the waiting!!! HAHA

so anyway, there ares some pics that was taken but not post up yet so yea here are the pics...

we won $10 YAY! if you see that black guy in town, ask him for $10 he will give you!

2008-10-09T07:07:00.000-07:00

alright... sooo its the 5th week of school and two UTs have gone pass. Guess what! Science UT is screwed up! I KNOW NUTS ABOUT IT MAN. Enterprise was alright though so thats the bright side of it. Anyway my days have only been a cycle that repeats every single thing i do each day. BORING!!!! Yup... just got back from town when to have dinner with the guys in class and Natt... Thanks Natt for the Ayam (flat) .... dont know how to spell it in malay. HAHA tong pang on Noor's bike. so after that head down to boat quay to continue my tattoo after a game of pool. So i guess tattooing made up my day! WOOHOO!!! Well things in my life just cant fit into my brain because of the hurry-ing life i have so yea. But i guess things are going well. hee im gonna sleep early. all i need now is a break!

take care peeps
& yes pls leave ur no. on the tag becos i lost every single contact from A - Z! THNX!!!

2008-10-03T00:42:00.000-07:00

MUST BE SHIDA WHO TOOK THIS!!!! TSK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*row eyes*

My unfinished art piece
Gonna finish it up real soon...
Cant wait to see the end product man

How cool that the shop named after me! WOOHOO!!!

2008-10-01T07:38:00.000-07:00

MISSED OUT THIS PHOTO...
the coaches and us

2008-10-01T04:24:00.000-07:00

YAAAWWWWWWNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BAAAHHH! Just woke up... ahhhhh feel so draggy! Hmmm had training in the morning. We did 3 big marathon rounds and then 2 * 1K srpint set then physical. HAHAH coach let us play after training today. So i tried C paddling. Had training on SAT too. HAHA two sessions on sat trained in the morning then head of to makan after that went to ken's house haha WE HAD LOTS OF FUN THERE MAN. We played catching by swimming. SUPER SHAG after that. Back for training at 4 plus till 7. HEE i swear the afternoon nap really helped. Tmr got sch and its only one work to describe.... "SIAN"...
oh well, took some retarded picts with Shida and SHOUTING! haha

THE END...

i still believe i walk alone.

& i know i'm not fast enough

becos i know out there the competition is never easy

i guess trying my best is not enough huh...

i dont know what to do man...

sick of life

BAHHH....

ONE STAR COURSE!!!

2008-09-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO I'M A 1 STAR CANOEIST!!! AHAHA yup our 1 star course just ended today and i must say its fun though its kinda tiring and i miss training seriously. But kallang is a awesome place to paddle. As you paddle you can see the town area and also the flyers. GUESS WHAT! We could even hear the F1 racing. Its super loud. ZOOOOMMMMMMMM!!! HAHA throughout the course, we need to capsize again and again and again. We had a challenge from the coach. We have to all capsize at once and save ourself and also saving people. Its like a teamwork thing and we have to do in within 10 mins. HAHA it was a awesome capsize drill becos the sun is soaching HOT! I AM SERIOUS!!! We all got BURNT like really BURNT! if you see me in school you will know what i'm saying. We learnt all the strokes and stuff and its kinda cool that we have to paddle to a shore to park our boats and then head to the hawker for lunch. I mean not everyone could experience that man. Lunch was awesome. We had CHICKEN RICE FOR BOTH DAYS becos its cost $2. HEHE I must say it overall an awesome event!!! HEEE
here are some photos!!!
MEMORIES OF 27 & 28 SEP 08...

LOOK CAREFULLY, I LOOK LIKE BATMAN. HAHA ITS MY SHADES THAT CAUSES THE TAN LINES ON MY FACE...

KUMAR!!!! TSK HORRIBLE!!!

PEK GEOK!!!

SEE THE TANN LINES???

THE GROUP THAT WENT!!!!

2008-09-25T00:25:00.000-07:00

alright alright check this out... HAHA i skipped class today. but i'm still in school becos i have to attend a cypher meeting later. SIGH SIAN!!! if not for that i will be home sleeping my lazy ass off... I need a break and i finally taking it. LIKE FINALLY!!! yesterday had water training well it was alright but the best part was we had MAC D AFTER TRAINING!!! WOOHOO!!!! i havent had MAC for like 3 months plus until yesterday lah! I TELL THE FEELING IS LIKE YOU HAVENT EATEN FOR 95478954347898765618987652891876782987627898726567892 DAYS!!!! HAHAH i had two companies today! ANDREA & PEI GEOK!!! PEI GEOK GAVE ME A ONE MIN MASSAGE. AND SHE END THE COMBO MASSAGE WITH A SPANK ON MY HEAD!!! well, overall it was alright nothing to post also. LOL tc peeps!

YOUR FRIENDLY NEIGHBOURHOOD BLACKMAN!!!

THE SUPER TIGHT HOODIE OF YANLIN'S

SADLY NABEI IS NOT IN IT THATS WHY WE HAVE TO DRAW HER. SHE? WITH BANGS? OMG!

that superladywas being thrown in the bin <--

AD FOR TOOTHPASTE?

ANDREA . YANLIN . ME

MENTOS*

25SEP08<3

2008-09-23T18:09:00.000-07:00

alright today is a bad day for me. I AM SUEPR PISSED OFF NOW! LIKE REALLY FUCKING PISSED. First things first, i don't know whats with me or in me or what i'm thinking about... saw her last night on my way home after water training at LSR. Saw her with her bf though we saw each other but somehow we treated like we never knew each other at all. Memories flashed back like stright away when i walk home all the way even when i was eating and i can't fall asleep. I kept thinking and thinking and thinking. All those 2 yrs of relationship slowly go through my mind like a story book chapter by chapter... I thought i got over a month ago. But once again, i was too wrong about it. I teared but give a fucked about it? I only told mum i saw her and all she cares was about her. asking how is she... I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO IS SHE NOW. HOW THE FUCK WOULD I KNOW. SHES NO LONGER IN MY ARMS BUT ME LOOKING AT HER IN OTHER GUY'S ARM... i hate to say it but FUCK IT MAN! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! 2yrs of fuck damn relationship could be forgotten in months... it hurts so much deeply... too much to take. i feel like giving up everything and anything. i feel so sick and tired. both physical and mentally. i wanna not care about anything. i wanna just quit everything. training was demoralising. the more i train the lesser my confidence level go down. What the fuck can i do man? CAN I JUST GIVE UP EVERYTHING? WELL, MAYBE I SHOULD. but then again is it worthwhile doing this because of a girl i loved for 2yrs even till now? am i even loving the girl that i once knew or has she changed. i don't know. on top of that this morning i somehow felt fucking pissed. SO JUST SHUT UP AND DO NOT AGRIVATE ME BECAUSE I WILL JUST BURST OF ANYTIME I SWEAR!

all those bull shit in life is killing me.
the only thing i did in my life that i regret is leaving her
i walk alone
&
i'll never give a fuck about anything
.............. i live life with my mistakes and regrets...
like what she said "things are not the same anymore."

gone&perished...

2008-09-21T05:47:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO!!! yes yes yes finally no work after training today!!! YAY!!! haha IM A HAPPY MAN!!! I FINALLY COULD HAVE A AFTERNOON NAP! hehe today's training was alright compared to yesterday. I swear saturday training was a killer. MY ARMS FELT LIKE IT WAS ABOUT TO BREAK ANYTIME MAN. IT WAS HOT LIKE CRAZY AND TRAINING WAS TOUGH. T1 sprint set was awesome man. It was mental mental and mental... I still dont think i'm fast enough to compete at all. I have to win the seniors T boat man. Worked after training yesterday, and guess what! YANLIN CAME TO FIND ME! hahah and she FOUND me with a hell load os FATS! haha THANK YOU!!! HEE so yea had an afternoon nap today and then out with family for POPEYE!!! GOD I SWEAR I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO EAT WITH THEM BECOS I HARDLY HAVE DINNER TGT WITH THEM SO NO CHOICE LO. SIGH!!! then got my hair cut real short... ewww but have to becos i fee irritated during training. so i got it cut short. Anyway, i a happy man today! hee

2008-09-19T08:05:00.001-07:00

alright... today was my rest day and yes indeed i had just that tiny lil bit more rest compared to other days whereby most of us canoeist will be in the gyming playing with the equipments or in lower seletar moving boats in the water... HAHA normally we will be found in the school's sport complex but today, we did something different. CM, Hairul and i slacked at TRCC after school... HAHAH i swear it was a hilarious moment there editing a particular photo. WE LAUGH OUR ASS OFF!!! CM NICE ONE! today's lesson was cool but u know i had to attend some meeting to settle the SIT week which i will be the OIC and thus, that actually spoil my mood la i have to admit. ANYWA, its settled so yup...

TMR will be training in the morning and then work at 4pm... YAN LIN SAY SHE WILL BE GOING THERE TO FIND ME!!! HAHA we shall see. i just hope i can perform will for tmr's training. Its very impt.

YSTD i when training with the seniors... It was good training with both bob and hairul. and the sprint set i swear i run my heart out like a dog la. HAHA but still i manage to pull through! WOOHOOOOOOO!

OMG!!! i cant believe i took this retard photo...

"HEHEHE UNCLE 60CETNS!"

my only gold = goal

its the memories that plays apart in my life..........

i'm walking all alone in a cold winding road...

2008-09-17T19:41:00.000-07:00

Phew! finally have this time to gasp for a lil tiny bit of fresh air... Life has been busy as usual... At times i wonder if i have a girlfriend now, I guess she will be the one who suffers due to my hectic life style. Train eat school sleep train... My life cycles goes on and on non stop. I'm not sure what i'm thinking and i'm not sure what i got myself into... Challeneges in life huh? Tell me about it. Anyway, I guess class is getting better and well, cool peeps in class though. Still dragging myself to school due to some modules. I CAN SLEEP CAN!!!

yesterday paddled after school. 8 * 1K. I TELL YOU THE FEELING IS LIKE YOUR HAND IS BREAKING... haha but its all up in your mind. And yes every set i will put all the focus and energy to paddle and every hard stroke i spear my paddle in the water... MY ONLY GOLD = GOAL!

well, i guess i learned how to take a deep breathe in between those busy wazy life to cool my head down. I have very bad temper and i'm sorry mum if i got all fed up when i reached home late at night after trainings. I have the BEST MUM ever! hmmm... just felt bad that at times when i'm very frustrated and when she talk to me i will just ignore. SIGH what kinda son am i man? BEING SUCH AN ASS...

Anyway, i learning lifes and it will take me the rest of my life to learn every single thing... AGREE??? HAHA

alright gtg tc guys!!!

the memories and process is the most important thing in lifes...

2008-09-14T19:27:00.000-07:00

busy wazzy makes me pissed-isy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I SWEAR I HATE LIFE NOW...

IT PISSING ME OFF...

WHATS WITH ALL MY INJURIES AND PACKED WORK!!!

I WANNA SHOUT OUT LOUD...

SIGH...

you dont trust me
you said you need time...
but, you aint giving me a chance to work things out when you said you would
when it end up saying you dont trust me.............

FUCKING PISSSSSSSED

2008-09-12T05:37:00.001-07:00

alright !!! finally i could have that little bit of space to take my breath... I really need a break but somehow, time just can't let me have the chance to. Those events that are all lineing up everyday of my life. I hardly have my own free time. Trainings, projects, school, work. Jeezz its killing me. i feel like leaving everything behind and walk away in the dark where noone can find me and stressless. But who am i in this world to do that when others have many more responsibility compared to me? life isn't easy and who ever said so?

its the second week of school and i guess its getting better. it started of as a drag but now, i kinda crap around alil here and there when i'm bored. They are nice people... hopefully i'm correct. so yea.. we kinda have lunch and stuff i mean only those group of girls that i'm close to. seriously the guys in my class are like all scattered. so yea, my nick is now "burnt" all thanks to "nabei"... Haaa it seems like i'm the entertainer in class recently due to some reasons. (LAZY TO EXPLAIN) went for movie after my cypher presentation with nabei, yanlin, katie and baoyi. Watched dangerous bangkok. The show was alright not awesome. Head home after that. Yup!

Tmr training and work... LONG DAY AGAIN! SAME FOR SUNDAY! See told you i got no space to breathe.

well, i jus hope everything will be fine. still waiting for movies with W47R... i miss them la!!!
i dont know what but i feel like going to ZOO!!!!!!!!!

dont ignore me, dont leave me alone... becos all i need is you...

2008-09-06T04:55:00.001-07:00

DISAPPOINTED

2008-09-03T19:12:00.000-07:00

alright yesterday was the start of second sem. I thought it will be alright anyway its just a new class. But i was wrong, i hate the feeling. Its a unexplainable feeling. I do not know anyone in class at all and i miss all my classmates. The comfort i feel in my ex class and now its totally different. I feel so empty. I mean my new maties are great, they tried talking to me. But somehow i dont know why my mood just made me feel like not talking at all. Well, my ex classmates will know why. But yea... first day was a drag and i kept telling myslef that tmr will be better. So today i woke up and drafg myself to school but yeah, i guess its getting better la. Finally spoken alil here and there. So yup yup yup... Hope things will go well.

Anyway had an outing with my ex clasmates on tuesday. It was fun la. Went to east coast cycled and then slacked at starbucks and head off to parkway parade. WOOHOOOOO!!! Had KFC for dinner. Well, a fattening night but so, we hardly get tgt to eat so its worthwell... so yup here are some photos taken...

white black white... they wear the wrong colour tee. HAA just look at the skin contrast... JEEZ...

2008-09-01T07:53:00.000-07:00

alright. i guessed its my first time saying i enjoyed staying at home the whole day. Yup, i did. After all the buzzy wazzy life i had this week, i finally decided i should stay home to relax and do whatever i want and enjoy my breakfast tea in the morning! WOOT!!! i swear it was awesome. Had dinner with my family thought. Tmr morning will be going for land training. Let me see... another 6k, gym then pull ups and lastly abs exercise. Haa i'm all set and ready for what is gonna be given to me tmr... after that i will be meeting my ex classmates at east coast for the last outting. Gee, guys life is gonna be different without all of you in class man. And what am i suppose to do without someone to talk to about my emotional shit??? Wish me luck!!! anyway i hope tmr will be an enjoyable day for us! PLS PLS PLS dont RAIN!

oh anyway i found this twins (nuttin but strings) on utube. They are awesomely fantastic. If you ever caught step up, you will actually see those two in it.
Well, enjoy the video...

2008-08-31T08:47:00.000-07:00

Jeeez!!! it has been a really busy and tiring week. and i really really mean BUSY! BUSY IS THE WORD MAN. alright let me recall my week. Hmm... basically its training and work lo. Worked 5 consecetive days. On sat, training was really all about pushing yourself and to not limit yourself. it was a very tiring training and painful then after which i gotta rush down to work. i swear my mind was totally blank when i was working. I couldn't even think properly. My dinner??? all i had was a curry puff and then slept in the stuff area for 10mins. woke up and head back to work. In that 6 hours of torturing work seems like its billions and billions of countless hours. So after work met up with yongann melvin and hairul then head home. Reached home at around 11 plus and slept at 12 plus 1am. I was super super tired. I had thoughts of not going for training the next morning but still being me, i still go for it. So i woke at 6 plus and head to lower seletar. train had lunch then accompanied yongann to wheelock then head down to citylink to meet hairul and baky then saw cat and met yusri. so we head off to NIKE PLUS HUMAN RACE 10K. It was an amazing day for me but really very tiring. I had alot of fun running that 10k man. Its so COOL lah. hahah anyway heres afew pictures...

The Running tee... :))

COOL PEEPS!!!

The finisher braclet... WOOHOO!

The HUMAN RACE CONCERT!!!

2008-08-28T19:06:00.000-07:00

hmmm after what happen like 5mins ago when i recieved a call from someone and telling me that persons problem and me being a ear to listen, this thought actually came into my mind. I kinda question myself alot. One of them is, why am i in the canoe team or in the first place why did i join it? why am i fighting so hard to fight for the slot for polite? <---- this is becos i promise someone i will be in and i will compete on water by then. Its the first ever promise to someone in RP. okay another question, why is life so screw up now? why am i feeling so down almost everyday of my life? why must i wake up so early to go for a jog when i can sleep? why why why and billions or why. I realise not all of this question asked could be answered. Times are really going bad for me. But should i hang in or not? Does it really matter? I mean even if i kept all my promise, will it change my life? people always say you say it, you promise it, keep the promise... But will anything change for the better? Have you guys ever thought it through? Hmmm... people do change in a blink of an eye. But have they ever ask if its for the good or bad? that i dont know because all i know is when someone change , they change without knowing they actually did. But people who sees that someone change will actually pinpoint and blame that you change. But have they actually thought so why? Why cant they just talk to you to tell you that you've changed? See those are the question i thought of and its really happening in reality. You go everywhere of your life, you will see it. Gee i guess its hard anwsering those huh? Anyway, work and training really really kills. I am so tired? But then again, why am i holding on to life like that? look another question just popped up. Life is complicated huh??? haa i thought so too. firstly, i cant wait for the nike run on sun and lastly i cant wait for the sem1 class outting on tues! I MISS THEM I MISS HER... HEEEEEEEEE alright la i'm going for a jog. Enoy this post and know what? Maybe you guys should fill your mind with those questions and think through life. Orelse even when you grow as old as 30 or 40 you will still be as ignorant as now like some idiots. HAAA just joking. PEACE

LOVE,

NICKY<3

2008-08-25T08:42:00.000-07:00

so... today was my first day or work. i must say its the slack-est job i ever had. But i wouldn't dare to judge just after my first day. Anyway, the people there is alright for my first day though haa and my boss, i think he seriously got my wired attitude. I don't know if i should be afraid of him or laugh at him. HAAAA i stood at the shop for 6 hours listen to the songs from my handphone which i plugged it into a speaker there. Had LJS for dinner haha i swear im not caring about what i eat anymore. (CHOO now u can't say that i am too healthy to go out for dinner tgt and i MISS YOU!!!!) anyway yes LJS i bought the 2 + 1 combo and i still add another chicken! A total of 4 chicken! Finished up and head back to work. Man, this week im workin like full force! almost everyday except for tmr and sun! SUN is the NIKE PLUS RUN!!!! YAY!!! Alright i seriously need a rest! HEEE heres a couple of pics on m y first day of work... Oh yea and im ONE MINE LATE FOR THE FIRST DAY OF WORK JEEEZZZ!!!!!

MY TAG SAYS: HI I'M THE CREW, IF YOU SEE ME SLACKING SMACK ME IN THE FACE! guess where is this place?

oh if you're wondering did i dye my hair? STOP YOUR WONDERING. YES I DID! haha let me recall what i do on my holidays...
1)dye my hair
2)cut my hair
3)shit
4)eat
5)sleep
6)train
7)paddle
8)hang out with canoe mates and nyp peeps
9)movies movies and movies (with both parents and friends)
10)class chalet
11)WORK
12)msg
13)msn
14)going out with god pa
15)swim and tann
16)masturbate??? HAHAH NO LA!!! too busy for this!!!
17)watch the olympics
18)talking cock with friends
19)caring for someone for the last time!
20)haha-ing all the way of my life trying to move on. EACH DAY ITS A TORTURE!
21)upcoming will be NIKE PLUS 10K run on the 31st lo.

ystd when out after training to meet baky at clark quay with PEPSI! wanted to collect our race pack but guess what? A GUY TOLD US WE WILL NEED FOUR HOURS OR MORE TO COLLECT THAT BLOODY THING! GEEE!!! so i saw fiqah and i asked her to collect it for us heheh THANKS man! Then me and baky head down to vivo to meet up with rainie and judy. We wanted to slack but somehow or rather, the idea of catching movie came out! ALWAYS LIKE THAT ONE LEH!!!! LAST MIN PLAN. HAHAH BUT I LIKE!!!! so yea we bought tickets for meet dave at 8.40 show. It was only 5 plus so, we slacked at starbucks and we talked all the way until the girls decided that they need to fill their tummy with pasta mania. I used to love pasta mania but now i find it just alright only la. Yup so after that we head to GV and went into the cinema. The show was alright but i was too tired and sleepy after training... Anyway i really enjoyed!!!! I will update soon. Sleepy man! TC AND SEE U GUYS SOON!

2008-08-22T07:49:00.000-07:00

alright its been long since i last update my blog but well, days had been busy busy busy and time ran pass me like a speed of light. A blink of an eye and here i am on the end of my second week of holidays. Schools gonna start on the 2 sept. JEEZ...
felt kinda shag now as i only had a few hours of sleep for three days. Had class chalet on wed and ends today. i left early to go home to get my rest at 6 plus. but somehow i recieved a call from fourskin asking me to meet up for an interview at 10 plus. So yea, i went for it and i got the job. PHEW... finally i would be able to feed myself man. DOMP!!! Hmmm kinda feel alil emoish when today was the last day w47r could spent quality time and ofcos that crazy lil busy girl(you know who you are) haa it was the last night that i could actually take care of her and looking out for her when she was asleep being afraid that she will get cold so yeah, covered blanket while she was asleep. Reminds me of sports camp... JEEZ
Anyway, finally got to rest and tonight will be the night i sleep in peace. But then again, I GOT TRAINING EARLY IN THE MORNING! BUSY ME ISN'T IT. Well, life had been like that and now, trying to fill in the slots with work. Well, who say life is easy? HAA

W47R:
its been a wonderful four months with you guys and you know it faith that brought us together. Somehow or rather class will be a different enviroment without you guess. I wish all of you the best in whatever you guys do. See you guys in school in a weeks time and yea just want you guys to know if you guys do need any help? Heres your ex classmates and your friend to come to with just a phone call away! SMILE GUYS! W47R...

2008-08-14T10:08:00.000-07:00

BURP!!!! its 1.09AM and i'm still awake. You must wondering why? HAHAH ITS HOLIDAY thats why. 3 weeks man. Jeez i still can't find a job. Hopefully they will call up soon for interview though i already have one waiting but its next thurs and i do have alot of plans going on next week. Outtings, class chalet and canoe games all waiting. And somehow i don't know why its all cropped up next week. Everything is next week!!! Anyway, watching basketball olympics now. USA vs Greece for sure USA will win. They are all NBA players man. GO USA!!! WHOOO! KOBE BRYAN! HAHA alright had training on wed was alright la. Need some room for myself to relax my mind and body. When over to my aunt's condo had a soak in the pool and jacuzee then lie on the long warm chair for a tann with the accompany of the wonderful music i had in my phone. Really really needed that man. I feel so so so relax. NO BUSY LIFE NO NAGGERS only PEACE. PHEW... lying there listening to the flow of the water closing my eyes. Man i wish life could be like that everyday man. But i will be fat! DOMP!!! HAA I HOPE NOTHING CLASHES NEXT WEEK PLS... FINGER CROSS. AND WORK PLS GIVE ME A CALL LIKE TMR ASAP. I NEED A JOB I NEED THE MONEY!!! Jeez... HAHA Oh me, hairul and baky went town after training to look for jobs. I swear we walk into shops after shops man. TIRING and met up with Liyin. She joined us. SINFUL DAY TOO LJS and MAC... DOMP! Anyway some pics taken on wed...

although i always disturb them but, they are the best seniors and friends i know i can count on them. WOOHOOO!!!

2008-08-11T17:43:00.000-07:00

WOOOOOH!!! HAHAH whats with the massive tag man. HAHA jeez...
Alright alright Last night was a wired. I don't know if its a dream or what but when i was sleeping i guess my brains are still working when i was asleep. I somehow remember about that particular day with my ex when she was actually going overseas the next day and we are spending our last night before she left in the morning. We didn't want each other to leave and would wish that that night wouldn't past. We walked apart from each other in different direction with tears rolling down our face. We turned back without knowing that both of us actually turned back a couple of times just to hope that anyone of us would walked back. It was at the alley and the was kinda dark and quiet. Till a english man walked towards me with a couple of plastic bagwhispering to me "dude, go for it! SHE TURNED!!!" and i turned, walked quickly towards her. The english man walked towards her saying "That guy back there is good guy and he's walking towards you." She turned and i hugged her with tears. She teared like there was no tomorrow. And seriously in happened to us and somehow i vision it again in my sleep. Its no De Ja Vu because it didn't happen after but before. I MISS HER ALOT!!! I swear i do.

01.01.07 It was new year we offically got together under the bright lovely fireworks at the Esplande.

Open Season, the first movie we watched even before we were offically tgt and its the day we first hold hands and kissed. "WOOHOO BAR!"

THE SONG WE SING:

Daft Punk » Digital Love Lyrics
Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
the kind of feeling I've waited so long
Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long
The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling rightYou wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and youI wish this dream comes true
Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
We'll make this dream come true
Why don't you play the game? Why don't you play the game?

Baby the song you sang to me.
I know its impossible having all this now
And i know its my fault leaving this relation.
NICOLE NG, IF ANY CHNACES YOU PASS BY MY BLOG, I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW IM HAPPY YOU MOVED ON AND I WISHED YOU ALL THE BEST.
I MISS YOU!

NICOLE NG...... <33

2008-08-11T04:25:00.000-07:00

Alright once again i slept till 10plus today and yes i didn't turn up in school. WOOHOO!!! alright i guess i'ver MADE EVERYTHING CLEAR. and ofcos to "GOD" i hope that our team would get stronger!!! I mean i seriously dont hate anyone in the team. Alright enough of that matter its a drag la. HAAA i have not time for all that. So went for interview and then meet mum at the work place and dad and bro came to fetch us and when for a dinner. AWESOME HUH! But i swear the food is like EEEE can! So yea now im home. HAAA Slacked day isnt it? BURP!!!! Okay going to rest tmr got training! OUT!!!

2008-08-10T09:28:00.000-07:00

alright there are lots of explaination to do man. Ok to that someone first thing first i wasn't the one saying all those. If you read my blog carefully, its was quoted that some juniors said. I heard it when we were on the way back hence, i told them its ok we are still a team and at the most we just do 500 push ups with the seniors. And to Alan, i know u guys are seniors and thats why we call u all seniors. I didnt disregard you guys that u all are not our senior? Because seriously outside of training or school, i wouldnt care if you're a senior to me or not. You're just a normal human being as known. So i just hope you wont conclusionyourself that fast. And to all seniors who are reading my blog. I hope this misunderstanding is cleared and seriously i know who u guys are. And lastly no bad feelngs.

2008-08-09T01:16:00.000-07:00

alright so i just came back from training. I'm really really happy because because because... HAHA because today's training i was ask to get onto K1. K1 PEOPLE! YOU GET ME? I MEAN ITS K1!!!! HAHA i thought i could get out of the poonton but i was wrong about what i can do. I balanced on it and went 4K man! WOOHOO!!! Then coach ask me and kenneth to switch with baky and cat so that they can try K1 and we took K2. Things are getting better and better which is good. WOOHOO!!! K1 rocks my day man! We tried and tried and we will never give up. NEVER WOULD. HAHA i think last night when i watch the opening of the OLYMPICS Adam van Koeverdan when into my body when i was asleep. HAHA i seriously can't believe i could actually balance on k1 man. SO YUP enough of my K1 thingy la. So after everything we all had to do 1000 pull ups not each but added up tgt. Seniors VS Juniors. WE WON! But although we won, some of us heard some of the seniors are like saying "AIYA THEY DO SOME WHICH IS NOT SUPOSE TO BE COUNTED THEY ALSO COUNT!" and some was like "ITS OK, WE DON'T CARE IF WE LOSE OR NOT, WE JUST FINISHED IT." when they first say they must win us! Isn't that like kind of excuse? So ofcos when some of the juniors heard that they are like unhappy and some say "COME ON LAH LOSE WITH PRIDE." but ofcos not infront of them la. So i told the juniors that its ok after all we are a team at the most we all will do the 500 push ups with them. Becos whoever lose would have to do 500 push ups. ENDED UP all of us do not need to do. I guess it NATIONAL DAY ISN'T IT. Anyway DAD's BIRTHDAY IS TODAY SO "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU DADDY" (although i know you wouldn't even see my blog of surf any net becos somehow you're just too lazy to learn how to use the com! LAZY ASS! So, its NATIONAL DAY TOO "HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE" Alright i'm tired gonna need some rest man. Going out for dinner to celebrate daddy's birthday. SO YUP OUT!!!

2008-08-08T04:40:00.000-07:00

Alright so today is 08.08.08 and its the opening of the OLYMPICS '08 PHEW! I've waited for years man! And the best thing is that it falls on our holidays. YES! YES! YES DOP! Hmmm... i guess as time goes by, i'm coming to be a happy guy each day. HOPEFULLY! HAH everyone is talking about today man. OH OH just to inform you guys you u had any chance to watch the OLYMPICS OPENING CEREMONEY and you saw a guy holding the Canadian Flag, THATS MR ADAM van KOEVENDAN. One of the fastest canoeist! SO anyway, being the NICHOLAS that you all know, yes i've skipped class ONCE AGAIN and not wasting my time in class because i heard thats its a DOP shit boring lesson and anyway he gave me a D for my grade so yea. Went to play X BOX for awhile and then meet my canoe mates for lunch and head off to DOWNTOWN EAST to search for job. DAMN SERIOUSLY I'M IN NEED OF JOB! SO, IF THERES ANY CHANCE YOU PASS BY MY BLOG AND YOU HAVE 'LOBANG', PLS PLS PLS TELL ME! And i hope i'll get the job at nEbO too... HAHA Can't wait for 8pm to come man. Somehow i feel like today's a special day. OH so after that i came home and slept for like 1 and half hour. Woke up and then head off for a jog and pull ups and lastly abs becos i feel fat after the rest i took on thurs. WAHHHHH! JOG JOGGY JOGGY JOG JOG! HEEE YAY YAY YAY! START ALDY. ALRIGHT PEOPLE TAKE CARE AND I LOVE YOU GUYS. TODDLES AND OUT!!!

07.08.08

2008-08-07T05:44:00.000-07:00

Alright so today is a day where i seriously took alot and i mean ALOT of photos counting in CYPHER PHOTO SHOOT! PHEW. HAHA Alright... SO heres like alil of those photos. Cypher photoshoot will be upload when i get it from them HEEEEEEE... so i'll let the picture talk.

AIN'T SHE CUTE? HAHA

2008-08-06T23:02:00.000-07:00

BURP!!! alright just had pizza in class and thanks to Spencer man. Thanks for the treat. Anyway life have been the same. Well... you know, train eat sleep play... YADA YADA YADA! As i say life its just a cycle... BORING! Anyway skipped school for two days man TWO DAYS! Felt awesome man. But today i'm a good boy! HAHA came to class as early as ever and going to stay all the way man! ALL THE WAY! WOOHOO! Anyway, had an interview yesterday with NUM. Hopefully i get that job man. I seriously in need of money. Dad and Mum is nagging like crazy that i'm spending too much money! ARRGGGHHH there are many thing sthat i'm in need of man. They just don't understand. Anyway, i just hope he call and tell me to go for the next interview. Gonna have cypher photoshoot later. HMM sian... I guess i'm gonna do a lil slight training when i reach home. Well, but my slight training is always like alot la. So yea. Can't do that lil training i will always feel that its not enough even though i feel like dying have way through. 1st sem is ending real soon and i'm not coming for monday's freaking bitch computing. It will just make me pissed. Inclusive of that freaking bitch faci! DAMN... Jezz i'm still hungry! My metalbolisim has grown man. Its getting bigger each day man. Hmm... sian lei. Why whenever we wanna take pics there problems one man. First was that time and ended up it was like my fault. Like i was the one who wants it to be when i actually waited so damn long just to take a photo with you compared to other people in class. AND TODAY!!! ARGGHHH i'm sorry anyway for showing blah blah blah. Anyway, today was just alright la. Normal rest day which i rarely have. And i eat alot today! HAHA

2008-08-05T08:54:00.000-07:00

WHY AM I TEARING SO BADLY FOR YOU? WHY? OUR MEMORIES VANISHED... JUST LIKE THAT? BECAUSE YOU FOUND SOMEONE NEW? IT ONE OVER YEAR OF RELATION MAN! WHY AM I TEARING?

2008-08-03T06:10:00.000-07:00

Alright its a sunday again. Oh well, school is getting from bad to worst, training is gonna get tougher and tougher which i guess everything happens for a reason. Hmmm... i guess i thought it true and totally understand things. A no. of people just broke off from their reloationship and knowing how much they want it in the first place tearing and emo-ing for it. But why end up so quickly? I guess the only reason why i'm still not in one is because i want a stable one. And want the one to be my future and not just a passer-by. I had enough of passer-by. Phew! Anyway, had training ystd and today. 10K for both days. Sat was 10K on T1 and then 6 of us juniors got to go onto K2 which was Baky, Cat, Ken, Alzee, Dom and Me. Seriously, there are a whole lot more to learn. I always believe being the fastest now will never always be the fastest and thats why i train hard no matter what. After that was 60 pull ups 20push ups when we come down and one run of jogging. So that happens until we finished up our 60 pulls ups. I mean the more you do the lesser raps you have to repeat. So yup and after training we were all hungry. Rushed our shower and head down to the same place for lunch and its 2 PLUS. GOD! Almost die of hunger can! HAHA so sunday morning is my favourite day... Sunday morning gives me alot of memories even the song by marron 5. Memories that i had with my ex if you wanna know. Anyway, woke up as early as 6.55am, showered and left house. Paddled 10k again today. I felt more comfortable doing 10k and less tired. I guess people do adapt to things huh? but guess what, i'm have blister one my heels and abrations on my butt. Right cheek to be precise. HAHA shh... WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF CANOE MAN! First, your hands, second your feet and lastly, YOUR BUTT! SITTING DOWN IS A PROBLEM NOW! DAMN... Had lunch again at the same old place hahah LIFE IS ALL ABOUT A CYCLE HUH! BORED SHIT... So head home after that and slept the rest of my afternoon. How cool can it be huh... HAHA and now here i am on my bed bloggong with my TVEE on. HMMM could it be more interesting. I'm the OIC of SIT Fiesta and seriously i had no time for any fucking organsing shit. PISSED MAN WHY MUST THEY CHOSE ME! -.- I hope i can pull this through. Life is nothing but a cycle. At keast in SINAGPORE! ARRRGGGHH...

2008-07-31T18:19:00.000-07:00

BUUUUAHAHAHAHAH vomit blood.. NEHNEH science is a piece of shit man... I don't understand it GOSH!!! And with thta nerd faci that think his so funny. Jeezzz SAVE ME MAN! Transaction my butt man. I wanna leave but noone is leaving with me or okay i'm lazy to ask anyone. SICK SICK SICK... Yesterdays was my rest day haha MAM COOKED PASTA YAY!!! I finally had home cooked food after so long. So i rushed home for dinner! WOOHOO! No doubt that the pasta was awesome. YUMMY YUMM! Anyway thanks for those were cared and concerned for me HAHA esp my canoe members. They always make me laugh and irritate me like crazy or i'll be the clown haha and somehow i always laugh like crazy and put my troubles behind. Cecilia and Michele saw me at HAVEN ystd and they say "nic why so skinny? You've gone skinny alrdy!" HAHA i didn't know what to reply but somehow there are two reasons. One is it might be the training second, might be the stress and troubles. Mama say i'm like a skinny monkey now! And i was like WHAT!!! Bro say i look so old and mum say its because i slimmed down. Oh god! Is that good or what? Well, norlyn always say i'm FAT. So i have no idea. Anyway, i'm feeling freaking hungry. I need food! Oh yay! gonna watch MUMMY 3 later man. COOL... anyway i shall stop here... HEE

2008-07-30T18:20:00.001-07:00

Alright so i've just given up another UT because i know nuts about computing! SADNESS huh! So anyway, ystd was my water training because once again i skipped school and i went down early with mat, bobby, ben and also wilson-.- ahaha JUST JOKING... So we did out warms and twisting then gather and MR TOH asked to gather and so we did. HAHA his one of our coach. We have to paddle eight rounds the BIG one. EASY PADDLE it was. to was ok and well i love paddling so no complains. After which the rest of the juniors came after sch. So they only did 5 rounds the small one and me and wilson took T2 down to paddle. I was the front man carrying at 98KG at the back of my boat and i have to break water. IT WAS WOOOHHH.. haha but anyway it was fast alright. So i decided to ask MR TOH to let me take K1 (OH MY K1 is NO JOKE) i took a tiger K1 and the first time i sat in it. Splash! I capsize! First junior who tried K1 and tell me about it. IT WAS FREAKING DIFFERENT FROM T BOATS MAN!!! I cap UBER TIMES. Time after time with so many seniors and coach watching and telling me what to do. I stay on the boat for quite some time an then again cap!!!! HAHA i will never give up trying man. Ystd i almost pull my frist stroke in K1. I'm gonna try in again and again. NEVER BACK DOWN (opps isn't that a show) haha yea but i'm serious. i'll never give up. Then when up and do my 60 pull ups with the rest of the junior boys. HEADED FOR THE SHOWER! and then its my lovely YONG TOU FU time HAHA somehow ever since we trained at LSR, i've been eating YONG TUO FU like forever! Its awesome man! trust me! And well headed home after then and had a good rest. I must saying after days of pushing all my sadness and anger out. I'M FEELING SO MUCH BETTER. HAHA I'M SO GOING TO SWENSENS! HAHAHA LOVE THE AD MAN.

2008-07-29T18:23:00.001-07:00

Alright people updating my blog. Yes once again i'm in class twisting and turning my chair just finished my RJ. Its been afew days since i updated my blog so yeah, sorry guys due to my down feelings i have and the pain in me. So as i said in the previous post we had strength test on mon. I think i did okay for it as the weights we carried are around some of the seniors. Well, maybe because i let all my anger out??? I dont know. But whatever it is, we have alot of roomk for improvement still. When home with a dull feeling that night but on my way home, i recieved a call from lailai and she was sobbing asking if i could meet her. Although i felt dull i thought it would be good if i just talk to her and make her feel better. So met her at Elias Mall and get her the think she can't buy-.- (always ask me to do does sinful stuff!!! YOU BETTER QUIT SOON!) so we when to a voiddeck near basketball court and had alil chat. Telling all the feelings and how we are now. I'm telling you life is miserable! So when home late and i was tired shag and dull. Always telling myself tomorrow is a new day and it will be better in time to come. HOPEFULLY!!! so yes tuesday was land training, i still felt dull and moody and anger due to the convo i had with nicole. It doesnt make any sense to me at all. Whatever it is, i'm not harping over it anymore. Whats over it over and i've thought it through. The girl i once loved for 1yr+ had changed so even if we are back together again, she will not be the girl i loved. So whats the freaking point? The nicole i knew is always with me but no longer existed. Never will she come back. Thats why i'm sad. Because i missed the girl i once knew. The girl that i close my eyes so tightly and kissed her. The girl that made me smile. The girl that i slept with through the night with warmth and comfort. The way she say "BABY QWIT QWIT ME!" (its our term of saying you bully me) and the way she give me that sad adorable face. Shes gone!!! So anyway land training was alright but i increased all the weights but still i can't feel the pain even though i was tired. So here comes today with freaking cognitive which i think i will go off soon! I'M SKIPPING THE BITCH CLASS! SICK SHIT MAN! Water training is later. Muscles aching but i'm feeling much better though... alright i shall stop this wordy post.

LaiLai say"Thanks for helping me buy things that i couldn't buy. Anyway, walk out from whatever have happened, if shes happy, you must be happy for her too alright?"

Whatever it is, as i said the girl i once knew is gone.

I've learned my biggest mistake and i will never taken anything for granted and cherished every single lil thing i have i life. I lead my head down waiting for the special one to pick me up.
Read this blog and you'll know what is the meaning of "cherish" i never knew and i've never thought about it till today. I love all the people around me i love my parents and i love my brother. I teared when i read the blog. Memories came back into my mind when i was with her. They days we sat a vivo spending every single moment we had for each other. Going to her place cooking for her having dinner and sleeping when i was tired. Life wasn't easy back then but we did everything to build the relationship up till the day i broke everything. The time we kiss and the special things we did. Looking at her pretty face, heart melt wispering into her ear say i love you baby... and the night i put her to sleep. Every single memories came into my mind. I can't help but to break down into tears. Her smile had never left my heart and will never. We once had that precious moment but nothing last forever...
http://memyselfmine.blogspot.com/

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life. I'm walking away...

2008-07-27T17:41:00.000-07:00

Alright i'm updating my blog once again. Been busy and my new wireless at home could only be activated by 31st... SIAN okay let me start of with my sat because seriously i can't recall what i do or what happen before sat. HAHA STM! Oh well, as you know my weekends are always packed with trainings after training... So yes sat was our trime trial on 2k... Although only two juniors made the 12mins time mark which is me and kenneth but i'm really disappointed with the result i produced. I believe i could have do it better if i really pushed everything i had that day but guess what saying i shoud i shoud will never help and happen because its over. At every race you can only give everything out because even if you say i should, you still lose the race. Thus, i will still train harder and harder. Sun was 10k... Tired man!!! I came is first woohoo! but still i have alot of room to improve. GO GO GO NIC! Coach say some of the juniors are gonna get into K boats this week so i'm waiting for it. POLITE is just round the coner. Theres no more time to waste but to train till the best form and fight it on water. ONLY THE BEST WILL COMPETE! Its tiring but iits worth well. All the hardship will turn into tears of joy. I don't want to let anyone down. And today i'm gonna have strength test. Wish me the best of luck man!

Chat with nicole on msn last night and just know that she had a bf recently. Felt happy that she moved on. Hope her the best of luck and that guy better treat her well. HAHA sound so silly of me. Oh well, people moved on just like that even though they will say its hard to moved on and telling you how much she loved you and want you back which words can never be trusted. I left her and i'll never turn back. Its my fault and its me to blame but i still have to move on.

2008-07-24T18:55:00.000-07:00

Another shit day! ITS SCIENCE ONCE AGAIN! i wanna skip but guess what, i've already used up both my lifelines... SIAN!
Had dinner with norlyn ystd. KFC it is. Miss those lovely burgers and cheese fries but i promised her to be unhealthy for that one day. HAHA It was awesome i would say. For a long time we haven't been sitting down eating and talking. Its the last i guess. I didn't want those time to past that fast. Anyway, i feel very unwell on my way home. And when i reached home i had a slight fever. feeling weak and stuff. Deep shit thing. sian Rest and now i don't think i can train for tmr's time trail. GOD!!! WHY MUST THIS HAPPEN WHEN TIME TRAIL IS JUST TMR!!!!! now i'm having moodswing. OH thanks jeannie for getting a box full of strepsils. It was really sweet of you! HAHA SILLY! Anyway, tiem trail is really killing me. All i want to be is at the very top of the list among the juniors. Easy to say hard to do! SIGH SHALL SEE TMR THEN.... MOODLESS MAN!

2008-07-21T18:24:00.001-07:00

BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!

sorry guys i was busy over the past few days and yes yes yes we got to prepare for NCC.

It was NCC on the sat and sun had to help out and i was doing boat control. It was very tiring and guess what we stayed over at Kwan's place on sat so that i would not need to travel from Pasir Ris to Macrichite! But anyway looking at the senior raced was a eye opening to me and it motivated me to want to train harder and be faster. I will oneday i will and i will keep my promise even though i'm not sure if the promise is still remembered or not. This is for Hairul "Mat i promise you next year i will be in one of the K4." Despite the hard ship i wouldn't care how much it takes to do everything right and proper to let me be the fastest and keeping the name and flag of RPC up right. Anyway, i guess i'm gonna have our last dinner this thurs though i can't wait for it to come but don't you think its a sad one? For the last time??? Sigh whatever it is i guess my busy-ness is keeping my mental block.

OUT!!!

Here are some of the pics on the event days... :)

2008-07-17T19:47:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO! Once again, we skipped school! HAHA so... yes i'm now in the library watching movies and blogging instead of killing my brain cells. HAHA Anyway, had training ystd. wasn't content with my performance. We had one set of sprint set due to the limited time given. I was the only guy taking T1 with the girls and the rest of the boys was put to T2 HAHA how sad... Joking... Oh well, i had to start the race 30 sec after the girl "burst" off HAHA... So i bursted off after 30sec i swear it was our first sprint race but its not an excuse. I caught up with all the girls but left with one. Didn't manage to kill that prey hahahhaa... TOM YUM PURPOSELY LET ME EAT HIS WASH KNN!!!! And xiaojun eat my lane and stop in front of me! WTH!!! HAHA i swear if all this happens in the race all of us will be DQ! Girls gotta stick to your lane man. HAHA oh well i will never be second again! NO MORE! I'm working and learning from everything. I will never put my body first but i'll put it at risk. NICHOLAS IS STILL A SNAIL IN T1!!! FRUSTRATION HITS ME!

2008-07-16T22:55:00.000-07:00

I GIVE UP GIVE UP GIVE UP...
Why is so many people asking me to give up?
Why are they supporting me giving up?
Baky say just give up go for better one oresle turn into gay.
HAHA i told her i'll turn into gay which i was just joking.
I really don't know why must i actually be the one that she won't give any chances at all but not others who hurt her so badly. Am i treating her that bad?
Kenneth pm says never look back but just move forward. BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I wished i could be like them. MOVE ON NICHOLAS!
Water training later. I am gonna burst all my emotions on the water.
BECAUSE OF YOU I FEEL FUCKED!
Whatevver I NEED TO MOVE ON
MOVE ON
MOVE ON
MOVE ON
MOVE ON
MOVE ON!!!!
I can't wait for nike plus human race WOOHOO!

2008-07-15T17:49:00.000-07:00

"don't love me for fun girl, let me be the one girl. Love me for a reason, like the reason be love." Played this song on my way to sch using my phone which i used love's phone to send it to my phone ystd. Hmm... hearing it i felt... i don't know. It felt like that kind of feelings i can't really explain at all. It make me remember those days when we really had the time going out spending time with her. As in having dinner with her blah blah blah. I guess the last one was Swensens. I miss those days and i missed spending time with her. Some how or rather i can't make myself move on. Don't know what to do at all. Does she remember about those time? ............ Anyway, i've been pushing my body over and over again. I've been running and gyming since last week and i will do it again today. Yes no rest. i can feel my body breaking but no i shall get myself tired out and die flat. So that i can rest well... oh we did this ystd for the PRESIDENT!

2008-07-14T21:01:00.001-07:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO!!! Its culture today and culture UT! Blah like totally! Anyway, we(me and my classmates) left class halfway as we got sick and tired of VB Codes. And guess what more then half the class turned up though. HAHA we skipped class and went to CWP to watch "HELLBOY II" it was well for me alright only la. Some parts are funny but i guess as the whole, we enjoy the part where they sang "can't smile without you" haha we started singing too like till now. HAHA It was fun but guess what some asshole spoil our day man! I wouldn't wanna say it because i really felt like punching his fuck damn face but if u really wanna know you can ask me. HAHA UT was alright today. Hopefully i did well. Can't wait for class chalet or outting whatever they plan i'm fine with it. SO BORED LA CLASS!

Anyway, i asked myself looking at her in class. Do i still feel for her or am i already moving on? I thought for a moment, deep inside i know i always feel for her all this moment i've been lying but what can i do when you aren't accepted? Its love that people can't force it between us. OH WELL.... gtg i need something to do to get things out of my mind...

YAY!

2008-07-13T18:02:00.000-07:00

NBC was yesterday though i gave up taking part in it but still deep in my heart i'm always with SMU. Well, i guess if you wanna do something and strive on it we got to sacrifies one. I won't regret and i won't turn back. CONGRATS SMU and GOD DADDY! HAHA WELL DONE GUYS! YOU GUYS ROCKS AND I MISS PLAYING MUSIC WITH YOU GUYS. They've got DISTINCTION for NBC which wasn't suprise at all under the barton of Mr David Anthony Glosz. HAHA anyway, we (some of the canoe memebers) went to sentosa to let our brains free. SO... let me let the picture talk.

2008-07-10T20:27:00.000-07:00

I HATE THAT I LOVE YOU
i hate myself... because of...

2008-07-09T21:23:00.000-07:00

Hey yo yes yes i am updating my blog... HAHA as i said i was busy like almost everyday. Anyway, i missed UT!!! Irritating SHIT. I woke up early just to be school early and be a good boy today but guess what! I need to miss two bus and yes thats the reason why i miss my UT! SIAN! And u know going to school in the morning and suddely all the shit happens to pour out trouble you. Anyway, its settled i guess.. Yesterday went training and a couple of pictures taken when i was paddling ... OUT!

2008-07-07T18:30:00.000-07:00

WAHHHHHH i feel like crying NEHNEH i screw up UT again! SHARKS!!! Hmm... but anyway i felt better today after yesterday's forceful run when i reached home. I felt hurt and moody yesterday and so i left class because i know even if i stay i will hardly present and whats more i kinda like speak to my faci in a bad tone like though she was the one that provoked me. I must say i'm sorry and i'm sorry my team mates for leaving just like that. When to cafe galeeli to slack then finished my rj and went home striaght. I didn't plan to do self training. So when home changed into my pt and head down ran all the way to pasir ris park. ran for 1 hour under the rain. I throw all my feelings out when i was running. Yes it was tiring. But still i felt good after that and now i''m CONTENT! haha my topic today is WHO AM I? hahah gtg man OUT

2008-07-06T18:32:00.000-07:00

Blaahhh... computing again! SIAN! Oh well people luaghing loudly in class and me emoing once again. Nevermind me. Had training ystd and sat. Coach was happy with my performance and he wants me to improve and keep my progression. Couldn't sleep last night due to the full of thoughts in my mind. It sucks when you can't sleep at all. I'm so restless and weak. Slacked with maties after training last night as usual for 3 consecative weeks. HAHA yea but my day wasn't good at all. Not at all. K la i hhave nothing much. So.. i guess i'll stop.

OUT

You never know how i feel. And because of that you will never understand.
"Nicholas move on move on MOVE ON! COME ON! MOVE ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
LipMin was right i guess... just give up. But its easier said then done... sigh

2008-07-04T06:44:00.000-07:00

Today's lesson was easy pizzy and was very slack due to Ms Junie Tok's last day with us. I can't deny i hate science but still today i kinda try? HAHA Overall i think shes ok lah. Hmm.. today i'm a good good boy. HAHA went home like straight after school. I mean you know you just need to be a mama's boy at times to spent alil time at home with her and have dinner to show up. HAHA so yes, i went home and kinda slack for awhile and had my dinner. Oh btw, was supposed to join the relay with friends but nah i think its just a waste of time. I must well take the time for my self training. Tmr will be water training for me early in the morning. Hmmm can't wait man and i hope it won't rain. JUST KEEP PRAYING. So yes right now i'm listening to songs and relaxing myself in my room. This feeling to awesome i swear. Its been long i even have my time for myself. Anyway, just had a guy for canoe team who added me on msn thanking me. He said i was strict to him but he think that its all for his own good because he just joined us like 2 weeks ago and he couldn't really do pull ups push ups running and stuff la. So i would need to push him alot which is also making myself doing more then i have to just to motivate him lo. And yes i agree motivating someone is really tiring! But well, his in the team so all i have to do is to grab hold on and bare with it lo. Anyway the more i do the stronger i'll be. I am still fighting for the promise i promised someone before. I don't know if that some body still rmb it or not but yes, i am fight really really hard. At times i fight until i felt like i'm soon dying on the spot. See here i go again. Doing nothing will make me think of all this troubles i have in heart. I kept asking myself why do i always have to think of it and not let it go? I really can't somehow i really don't know why. I ask myself will that person ever think of it too? Will that person even care what my problems is? Maybe that person wouldn't even care you're alive or dead? I don't know. Because i know i'm still hanging on and i also know i will never be accepted. People look at me like i'm a fine guy who has no problems but they are wrong and if i ever agree to it, its the biggest lie i ever told. I can't let go and i cant move on. Why can't that person even try? Why does the ex-convicts could even have a second chance and i couldn't even have one. It has been months that i proved everything to that someone. But nothing had change. Each day i cared and showered that someone with love. But nothing happen. I guess you might think i'm a fool isn't it? I don't know it seems like i could die for that someone. Anyway, this is my problem when i'm alone at home not doing anything. I will think of all this. Sigh* now you know my reasons why i always keep myself busy each day by doing training and training and training. As much as i hate running i still want to because i felt the pain in me and i tried to over come. Each time i try, each time i feel better. Its just like giving all my anger out. Life isn't easy and i really wish that someone all the best. I don't know. People looked at us as couple but in real life, its miserable. Anyway, this are the picture we took today.

W47R

2008-07-03T18:00:00.000-07:00

Have you ever ask yourself how can you love someone for so long despite many things that happened and knowing that she or he will never accept you no matter how much love to put in? I still can't figure it out... sorry for the random post though. it so damn boring la. HAHA anyway today i will try not to play my game and concentrate to do my work. ARGGGHHH still can't figure out man! WHY? i've been thinking for so long man.

2008-07-03T07:17:00.000-07:00

Then again, i haven't blog like for many many days and yes i'm guilty. Anyway, life have been busy and yes i will not really complain much on how busy my life is because all this busy-ness that i'm having now is because of me. I WANT IT. Oh well and yes theres a reason behind it. HAHA anyway just had training with the seniors today. 1.6m slow jog for warm up then 800m maintian sprint followed by 400m full burst sprint and lastly 5 sets of 100m full sprint. Yes it might sound easy but no its not. After all the sprinting we had 400m slow jog. HAHA i lost track on the total distance we ran just now but anyway counting it back, we ran a total of 3.7m of sprinting. WOW!!! After sprint we had gym and then abs training. And because i have to get my sea monster(only norlyn can call me that!!!) hair cut. And yes my hair is really short! WAHHA so bernice and i took shower and guess what after bath i felt so super refreshed. Its like i felt so super active man. HAHA so cool isn't it. Anyway thats all i did today and now i'm home slacking my ass off. HAHA lazy lazy. FINALLY NO UT FOR THIS WEEK YAY! ok it was very random i know! *roll my eyes Anyway, its my rest day tml so.... i'm gonna rest. HEE :)

OUT

3 july 08

2008-06-29T22:36:00.000-07:00

HAHA yo peeps i'm back to blog after a couple of days. Oh man i hate computing man. Its making me to fucking pissed! DAMN! Anyway, yup i was kinda busy this few days or maybe i should say there isn't anytime for me to blog la. My weekends are actually quite okay as i went for training on sat and sun. And yes, each water training i go, i improved and get better each time. HAHA We went town for movie after sat's training. We caught GET SMART @ Cathy! HAHA it was awesome man. We laugh like crazy man. I would recommend you guys to watch it la. HEE:P So after movie we head home as the next day which is sun, we will have training. And yes my weekend is just like school days man. I gotta wake up at 6.40am in the morning to get myself down to SLR. WAAAAAHHHHHHAHA i shan't complain as someone always say this to me " You like what so dont complain." HAHA Yeryer i'm aiming for POLITE as been said before. HAHA Training like crazy man. Sun was like slacking day la. We had lunch after training then slacked at MacDs (House of FATS!!!) HAHA and then we decided to head down to Esplande Lib. So we slacked till 8 plus 9 and i swear i was damn freaking tired so i head home and then bath and laid myself on my comfortable bed with my lights out and tveee on and on the line with ****** HAHA just for awhile la. After we hang, i fell straight to lala LAND!!! And now im in class suffering all the computing shit! AHHHHHHHHH! Oh well, oh and fri night some of us (canoiest) met at Marina Square and we went to play pool and slacked again. HAHA yes yes SLACKING OUT NOW IS SOOOOOO... i also dont know what to say.

OH yes and i was fucking pissed with my bro man. He is such an ASSS! Fucker selfish piece of shit. Dude i only took one fucking ear stud from him man. He came into my room in the middle of the fucking night when i was fast asleep comfortably. He came in and fucking made hell lots of noise! DAMN its just a small lil stud why must he make a fucking big fuss out of it. Anyway, its not worth me harping over it but its just that he is so damn freaking selfish man!

2008-06-26T20:09:00.000-07:00

CLASS IS KILLING ME!!!

its so freaking boring in class and yes i'm moody!
RAAAAAAH!
Oh well, havent been blogging for a couple of days i guess.
I mean a proper one. Yes yes, i'm lazy to do so. HAHA
SKIPPED school yesterday. When SUN TANNING and then to JURONG EAST to repair my lappy.
Well kinda relaxed la.
Went self training at night. HEHE
SIGH! I miss the good old days man! I miss it!
(oh well, some people will know what i'm saying la)
YERYER!
Might be catching a movie after Cypher meeting i guess???
Oh well, my fridays are not plan! Its meant to be relax.
SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH SIGH!
Water training tmr!!!! Can't wait though!
MAN I WANNA GET INTO PROLITE AS A PROMISE!
Anyway time to go la.
OUT!!!

27 June 08<3

2008-06-24T18:28:00.000-07:00

No Matter How Much Care You Care For Someone, Do You Think She Or He Really Appreciates It?
Think Again!
Training yesterday was alright 4k of my own speed running. Well took 18 mins to complete 4k... Not bad la!
Then gym and pull up and abs training lo.
Later still got water training. Blog later of other day then

OUT!

2008-06-22T18:32:00.000-07:00

BORING!!! DUDES ITS FREAKING I'M FREAKING BORED IN CLASS NOW MAN. ITS COMPUTING! HAHA shall not whine over it. Anyway, had a long day ystd. Woke up at 7am and headed for training a LSR. Learned alot of stuff from coach because its only a few of us so, he could have the time to observe us one by one. He told us our mistakes and we what we have to concentrate more on. HAHA Training ened like 10 plus? took bath and when kpoi tiam to have our brunch! HAHA after that we kinda can't make up our mind to go somewhere to slack and rot. So we saw a bus that have the sign saying "SUNTEC" HAHA so we ran towards it and board the bus. TO SUNTEC WE ENDED UP! HAHA D-tour to TOYS 'R' US played inside and messed up everything. TSK! So we got nothing to do and we bought a mini mono poly. Headed to my house. They watch Harold and Kumar and also You don't mess with Zohan. HAHA Talk crap laugh like crazy and stuff. The air-con in my room was awesome due to the hot weather. So yup slack till 7.30pm and headed to downtown for dinner. YUMYUM! so thats how we spend our sunday!

YONG ANN YOU GOT RAPED! HAHA

Well, i guess a picture tell a thousand words

2008-06-21T06:30:00.000-07:00

Just came back from dinner (SUBWAY) at downtown east with mum and dad, bro and his girlfriend. HAHA seems like both couple one light bulb. Last night was a fun night with some of the canoe members. We meet up at south agrora at 5pm and then headed to cine leisure to for dinner. Some headed for SUBWAY and some BK. So after dinner we caught the 8.20pm show. Watched NEVER BACK DOWN. IT WAS AWESOME MAN!!! COOL SHIT! HAHA So yup we had 19 of us and after that some head home and the rest of us went Mac to slack and crap. HAHA LAST NIGHT WAS A SINFUL DAY BECAUSE OF ALL THE COOKIES AND BROWNIES WE HAD! HAHA "WACK ONLY LA TMR TRAINING GOT ENERGY" HAHA that was our excuse. SO yup Morning had water training. Seniors did a total of 100 pull ups and juniors did 60. Did push ups and ofcos running la DEY! haha It was a tiring day but i finally got my strokes right and once again coach commented about my stroke YAY! Tomorrow will be an optional one. I WILL BE GOING. Even though i'm very tired man. Train hard for POLITE! LAI!!!! HAHA thats what we had to motivate our brains HAHA we are one banch of crazy ass who psycho our own brains to kill the pain.

Here are some pictures of the crazy thing we did in town! LET THE PICTURES DO THE TALKING THEN I'M OUT!!!

21 JUNE 08 i wish someone could just be bthere for me

MOVIE MOVIE MOVIE

2008-06-19T23:57:00.000-07:00

This is what you do when you're too bored in class in RP

FEAATURING ZUL AND NIC!!!

2008-06-19T22:32:00.000-07:00

SICKENING BORED MOODY
I JUST WONDER WHY CANT YOU EVEN SPEAK TO ME IN A PROPER WAY?
AREN'T I YOUR FRIEND?
OH WELL, MAYBE A FRIEND THAT WAS FOOLISH ENOUGH I GUESS...
OR MAYBE YOU'VE NEVER TREATED ME AS ONE.
I WAS THERE ALL THE WHILE AS A FRIEND FOR YOU. WHAT ABOUT YOU?

FUCK GIVE ME SOME MORE STUFF TO DO CAN? I WANNA STAY OUT OF EVERYTHING!

2008-06-19T06:15:00.000-07:00

Alright i'm here to blog again! HAHA it will be short though. Okay let me see. I'm now the IC of Republic Canoe Team and also the Events Coordinator for Cypher Club Management Committee. HAHA I guess life is gonna be super busy man. HAHA Just had cypher meeting then meet up with some of my canoe memebers for gym. Did a light gym today then head home. Yup! So i'm gonna rest from now NO MORE UT FOR THIS WEEK!!! OUT PEOPLE!

19 June 08

2008-06-19T00:41:00.000-07:00

Finally got this picture after a long time. HAHA yup you're right this are some of the canoe boys and its taken during our camp when every single one of us felt the pain together. HAHA

Tommi, Dom, LZ, ME, Kwan, Kumar, Dao Hui, Far, Ken HAHA

CANOEIST WOOOSH!!!

2008-06-18T18:28:00.000-07:00

Look guys i've just gave up on my UT i swear. I dont even understand a single shit about it AGREE? HAHA oh well it doesnt matter to me anymore because its over and i guess i shouldn't harp over it. Anyway, water training ystd was awesome. Im getting better and faster in T1 WOOHOO! Oh anyway being a IC really is stressful. But its ok because i know my canoe is doing well and i know that they will strive for anything they want to achive. Coach comment that the Ics are doing a good job too! YAY! GO GO GO ICs. HAHA freaking high man. Yup and Tommi was like "haiya! Eh who can win seniors man. Nic, win them leh!" I was like "Why me man! SIAO AH! I'm nothing compared to them man." Tommi:"You can one lo. Now only you can and the fastest." Well i dont believe i'm the fastest but DUDE i will work hard to win the seniors. HAHA gonna have cypher MC meeting at 5pm. Then after theat will meet some of my canoe peeps for self training and we will work our ass out man. Tomorrow will be my rest day. Maybe going to catch THE HULK and dinner to celebrate far's BDAY MAN! HAHA That old man! HAHA kk gotta go! Lesson Time!

2008-06-17T23:04:00.000-07:00

Its break 2 now and theres nothinng to do now but to crap and blog. Oh well, its cognitive what can i say. Gonna have canoe water training at LSR later on WOOOHOOOO! My muscle is hurting alil though. Went for Canoe land training after school yesterday. HAHA i swear its PAINFUL. We sprint up the slope for 5 times man. But gym training was awesome. YAY! Yesterday's training killed alot of them and causes them not to be able to carry on gym trainning. Did more then 60 pull ups. oh man! hhaha its all for the team. TEAM WORK GUYS! Yup woke up freaking late today and yes i'm late for school the second time in a week dude!

Recieved a mail from Cypher this morning and i'm in the MAIN COMM NOW! Only 7 of us. Another thing to get me busy. I guess its good that i would be freaking busy. I wanna pack myself up so that i won't thing of my troubles and problems. Even if i'm tired and my eyes are dying, i guess its worthwell rather than heart pain. Its a kind of pain that is worst then a tattoo which uses hundreds of thin neddles poking into my skin. One day, i will just collaspe and noone will even care. Thats how my life is. The smile on my face is also a put up. Whatever it is, nothing last forever!

OUT!!!

18 June 08 (is my life gonna be like that throughout?)

2008-06-17T18:22:00.001-07:00

Fucking tiredFucking shitFucking two days with theFucking shit guyFucking pissed off with lifeFucking not enough of sleepFucking late for schoolAll i can say is FUCK!

2008-06-16T07:38:00.000-07:00

Its first day of school of another term and seriously every single thing just sucks to the core. Life right now just sucks like noone business. Right now i guess i just wanna be alone and not have anyone becos i find that i'm so stuck up with life. I JUST WISH I DON'T HAVE TO LIVE LIFE. FORGET IT I'M OUT!

ITS FATHER'S DAY!

2008-06-15T06:16:00.000-07:00

HAPPY PAPA'S DAY!!!

2008-06-14T11:16:00.000-07:00

Just got back from camp just now. I was totally out after the whole camp. Oh well not only me but i guess its everyone in canoe team. Hmmm... its now 2.17AM feeling quite moody because of the things i had in mind. I don't know what to do. Anyway lets drop the topic and let me blog about my canoe camp.

Day 1, we reported outside of south argora rigth at W1 at 3.45pm. Waited for everyone to arrived with all the big heavy bags that is filled with clothes, sleeping bag and most of all, out canoe gears. Both seniors and juniors. As everyone arrived, we make our way to argora hall and put our bags down then gather and was put into 4 groups of 7 to 8 people. Then we have briefing and for that whole evening, we had got ice breaking games and we played dog and bones. We were all super high. Then we had shower. A icy nice shower. SCREAM AND SHOUT IN THE TOILET LIKE NOONE CARED. HAHA then its free and easy and 11pm was lights out. But somehow we couldn't fall asleep and had alil gay talk. Damn! guess what they were talking about having sex and girls... HAHA They are so into it man. Oh well, i was just a listener so i just laughed. And finally slept at 4am but woke up at 5am. IT SUX! Oh and i injuried my freaking leg man! DAMN

Day2, when is wash up and got ready for water training with my tights and single on. I swear they guess can't stop commenting about my ass and the guys were smacking it. WHATS MORE JULIA SAID I GOT A NICE BUTT! WELL I'M PROUD OF THAT. ALL THANKS TO MY MUM THAT GAVE IT TO ME! Mindy was like whuuu someone is it tights. HAHA but anyway, we had our breakfast and headed off for water training. We had a competition between the juniors. I was on T2 and guess what, I WON! WHOO!!! FIRST LEADING THE REST MORE THAN 4 to 5ooM man. It feels to good winning! But joanne told me this, "it felt nice winning but you have to feel how it was losing becos only then you will tell yourself that you will want to win them and make them eat your wash." HAHA I TOTALLY AGREE MAN!After the competition we had to do pull ups. Guys 35 girls 25. Bob was there and i was doing my pull ups. I finished my 35 but Bob wants to push me further and get better strength. So he ask me to do 45 and i did. HAHA So after water training we head back to school for lunch but guess what, we had a news that ther other team dropped their boat back there at LSR. So we all had to do 200 pumping as a whole canoe team. So we did. Alan, Bob and me was in a role and we did it and encouraging the rest to do it. Telling them they can do it and its nothing. HAHA After doing that 200, we had our lunch and waited for a moment then we had to run from RP to Kallang stadium. We reached the stadium and we had telematch. I swear its becos of the telematch that made all of us could walk properly and muscle aches. We had to bunny hop 50m then finished up 15 pumping and then bunny hop back another 50m. People, you can try doing it and i make sure you could hardly stand on both legs and the next day, you will take more time to sit compared to your grand parents man. It hurts like crazy i swear. Then after bunny hop was brezz walk haha they said i'm the most sexiest doing that haha and they keep asking me to do it again and again. KUKU. Then side walk and sprinting. After the whole telematch we jog all the way back to RP again and do our cool down exercise. HAHA we went training at 7.30 and finished training at 5 plus pm man! INTENSIVE DUDES! We had shower then dinner and fun night. WHOO its all games la haha. We played police and thief but i didn't want to play so i'm always the one gatting caught and Mindy accompanied me HAHA. So we walked all the way out to 7elevn to get snaccks and we ate. 9.30pm game stopped we when back to argora and we played poker followed by king game. HAHAH It was FUN MAN!
11pm lights out and i swear every single one of us slept like a pig man. No gay talk nothing! All of us were to tired and was out just in an blink of an eye. HAHA

Day3, Woke up at the same time and prepare for water training again and breakfast. Which is today. We offically our training with coach for the first time. And we did land stroking to correct our strokes and coach says that my stroke was generally good. So after that the boys grab T2 and get down the water for 2k and girls T1 for 1k. Coach paired me but with Wilson and he is so HEAVY!!! But anyway, we did our 2k and we still had time to paddle. So being me i asked him to stop paddling and i will paddle on my own with him just sitting behind. I swear i used all my might to push in order to move man. It was good training for me. WHOOO! Then when back to RP and lunch shower and had a cheer competiton. Overall for 3 days my team "SPLIT DICKS" WON!!!! YAY!!!

Right now me and Fur are the ICs for junior boys. Man i hope i can cope with it and do a good job for my team. HERE WE GO REPUBLIC CANOEIST! WHOOOSSSH!!!

2.56AM
15 JUNE 08<3

CANOEIST WE STRIVE AS ONE TO MEET OUR GOALS TOGETHER.
FOR ME, PO-ITE HERE I COME!

LIFE STILL GOES ON EVEN IF THE ANSWER IS STILL THE SAME
I CAN'T CHANGED IT... IM TIRED

2008-06-11T10:29:00.000-07:00

A SONG TO SHARE WITH YOU PEEPS BEFORE I GO FOR CAMP. HAHAH I WENT TO TEE'S BLOG AND THIS SONG "TONIGHT" CAME PLAYING. AND IT REMINDS ME OF THIS SONG MY FM STATIC. ENJOY!

Song lyrics | Tonight lyrics

2008-06-11T04:33:00.001-07:00

YAWN... its 7.33pm and just had my dinner. I'm kinda moodless now. Didn't really talk the whole day one thing is because i'm home alone another is because i didn't felt like talking. Spent my whole day facing my lappy reading through her old blog. Started off with yr 2005. Be it with whom shes talking about i kinda know the reasons to her answer to me. And if guessing the person right, i guess its a guy name starting with a "Z". I guess he was e only guy she really loved. Why can't i be the one she love? mmm... reading it just let me feel her pain? i'm so moody now. I really wish she would accept me oneday. Its just... i don't know. I just love her so much. Going canoe camp tmr alrdy. Oh well, i guess i won't carry on shall go for a walk to think things through. Take care peeps OUT!

Why is everything so unfair in this world? IM TIRED!

11 June 08

TRAIN HARDER AND HARDER!

2008-06-10T04:33:00.000-07:00

TIRED is the only word i can explain what i feel now. Yup went for canoe gym training in the morning and yes i woke up LATE! I was suppose to wake up at 6.40 but some how i overslept and i didn't even know i switch my alarm off. I guess its due to my lateness of sleep and now my eyes do need tooth picks to support. HAHA CRAP! alright we had 800m of warm up jog followed by warm up sets and then two rounds around the school and another 800m sprint set. WHOOT i sprint like theres no tmr. After that we did our gym sets then pull ups and abs sets. FROM 9AM ALL THE WAY TO 2PM WHOOT HIGH MAN! When off for a shower and headed to W4 HAVEN for food with the canoe team. HEHE SAW 3 MISSED CALLS FROM LOVE because i called her after my training but she didn't answer. So when down to Agora Hall to meet her. Even though it was just a short time and moment we had but yeah it just made my day seeing her. I miss her so much lah! And the worst thing is that when she end her camp, i am going for camp. ARRRGGGHHHHH.... could hardly talk to her on the phone also and she could hardly text due to her activities. Hmmm.. but i really want her to take care of herself. She look ok today so i guess shes doing well in camp but somehow or rather she kinda treat me like i'm a stranger to her. Maybe i'm justing thinking to much. yeah i'm tired and i'm sure to have muscle pain next morning. Like really pain. Camp is in two days. Its gonna morning serious training and night, fun time. I guess they are gonna gay around esp WILSON!!! BEWARE FOLKS! DON'T BEND DOWN IN THE TOILET EVEN IF YOU DROP YOU PRECIOUS SOAP ORESLE... HAHHA CRAP AGAIN! Hmmm... gonna write a letter before i sleep to love. Can't wait to see her again! I will train hard for her! Even though ii've hurt myself and it hurts like crazy. But i just shut up and do my training. This week had been my training week i've been having self training and canoe training since ystd and today and thurs till sat! GOD! GIVE ME THE STRENGTH!!! I'm so gonna need it. Hmmm... Have been thinking of her day and night. I JUST HOPE...

IM TIRED AND IM OUT PEEPS
LET ME HAVE MY ENERGY SO I CAN FIGHT MY WAR!
BLESSED ME WITH YOUR STRENGTH
AND LET ME WALK ON MY TWO FEETS EVEN IF I FALL A BILLION TIMES.
I KNOW IT WON'T BE EASY
BUT NO MATTER WHAT, I'M GONNA FIGHT MY WAY THROUGH
JUST FOR YOU!
EVEN IF I BLEED TILL DEATH.
BECOS I WANNA PUT IN MY 101% FOR YOU LOVE.
TAKE CARE AND REST IN CAMP.
I LOVE YOU!

10 June 08<3

I MISS YOU

2008-06-08T22:23:00.000-07:00

yesterday is history, tomorrow is mystery, today is a gift that why its called present...

you agree with that?

i miss love badly!!! <3

9 June 08

2008-06-08T07:10:00.000-07:00

ONEDAY, I WILL RACE WITH THIS K BOATS!

S.I.C.K

2008-06-08T06:04:00.000-07:00

Basically i'm sick so my activities today was just to stay at home...
Anyway i wanted to share with all of you this song by the OSMOND.
Its really a outstanding and awesome song. I haven't heard this song for years and when i on my tveeee they had this 50th anniversary celebrations by the OSMOND (yes its a old song sorry i'm born in the 80s guys.) and it reminds me of many things. HAHA go listen and look at the lyrics. Hope you'll love it guys! (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iEhae6IcjAw&feature=related) go to this link to watch it!!!

LOVE ME FOR A REASON - OSMOND
Girl when you hold me
How you control me
You bend and you fold me
Anyway you please
It must be easy for you
The loving things that you do
But just a pastime for you
I could never be
And I never know girl
If I should stay or go girl'
Cos the games that you play
Keep driving me away
Don't love me for fun girl
Let me be the one girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun girl
Let me be the one girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love
Kisses and caresses
Are only minor tests babe
Of love lead to stresses
Between a woman and a man
So if love everlasting
Isn't what you're asking
I'll have to pass girl
And proudly take a stand I can't continue guessing
Because it's only messing
With my pride and my mind
So right now it's time to tell ya
Don't love me for fun girl
Let me be the one girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun girl
Let me be the one girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love
I'm just a little old-fashioned
It's take more than physical attraction
My initial reaction is honey give me love
Not a facsimile of
Don't love me for fun girl
Let me be the one girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun girl
Let me be the one girl
Love me for a reason
Let the reason be love

Canoe Outting

2008-06-07T06:25:00.000-07:00

WOOOH! hmmm... seriously i woke up super early today and head off to bishan to meet my canoe team to attend the national womens competition. Oh well, i guess generally RP did well. Total of 4 medals and tmr will be their finals and i'm not going becos i'm super tired HAHA okay guess what, basically we were all under the rain the whole day. I have to record the timing for each event and we went to get food together with some of the seniors and making stupid jokes HAHA being totally WET! Then had lunch and i swear we were all wet and dirty becos of the mud man!!! So some of us actually went to Junction 8 and i bought my glove and a puma pants for a total of $43? yeryer and head home slping in the bus for 1 hour plus. HAHA yeah overall was kinda boring la. AND I 'M' LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!

7 June 08<3
i love hon!

2008-06-06T02:58:00.001-07:00

RAAHHHHH! HAHA woke up at 10 plus today and then reminded love to call her comsultation but i my eyes was still shutting down and somehow i can't get back to sleep so i laid on my bed for half an hour texting and stuff HAHA then drag my lazy ass to get washed up and ate a piece of plain bread and changed into my pt and when off for jogging. Today's jogging was awesome man! HAHA i didn't more then i expected and after that i did push ups and pull ups then head home for alil of weights and abs! I was shag back then. OH and tooday's weather is CMI man! Yeah bath and watched TVEEE and yada yada on the phone and then drag my lazy ass to whitesands for a hair cut. HAHA don't really nothing much have changed about my hair only for the top becos i only trim it and cut the top shorter so yup. Gonna have dinner with mama and papa later and maybe get my gloves for gym training. HMMM... i miss her and i'm waiting for her to finish training! Well, today was okay to me so yer nothing much already. TTYL! HAHA OUT

6 June 08<3
i'm here for you no matter what happens...

AWESOME DINNER

2008-06-05T07:15:00.000-07:00

Yo just came back from dinner with love and send her home. HEHE ALL I KNOW WAS DINNER TONIGHT WAS AWESOME AND ITS THE BEST DINNER THIS WEEK. I've never had dinner and felt happy for a very very long time. Love thank you for taking the time off for me. I LOVE YOU HONEY! MWACKS<3

heres a lyrics of a song to share...

One In A Million lyricsHow did I get here? I turned around and there you wereI didn't think twice or rationalize'Cause somehow I knewThat there was more that just chemistryI mean I knew you were kind of into meBut I figured it's too good to be trueI said, "Pinch me, where's the catch this time?"Can't find a single cloud in the skyHelp me before I get used to this guyThey say that good things take timeBut really great things happenIn the blink of an eyeThought the chances to meet somebodyLike you were a million to oneI cannot believe it, you're one in a millionAll this time I was looking for loveTryna make things work that weren't good enoughTill I thought I'm through, said, "I'm done"And stumbled into the arms of the oneYou're making me laugh about the silliest stuffSay that I'm your diamond in the roughWhen I'm mad at you, you come with your velvet touchCan't believe that I'm so luckyI have never felt so happyEvery time I see that sparkle in your eyesThey say that good things take timeBut really great things happenIn the blink of an eyeThought the chances to meet somebodyLike you were a million to oneI cannot believe it, you're one in a millionAll this time I was looking for loveTryna make things work that weren't good enoughTill I thought I'm through, said, "I'm done"And stumbled into the arms of the oneI said, "Pinch me, where's the catch this time?"Can't find a single cloud in the skyHelp me before I get used to this guyThey say that good things take timeBut really great things happenIn the blink of an eyerThought the chances to meet somebodyLike you were a million to oneI cannot believe it, yeah yeahThey say that good things take timeBut really great things happenIn the blink of an eyeThought the chances to meet somebody Like you were a million to one I cannot believe it, you're one in a million, yeah One in a million, yeah You're one in a million

i thought that the lyrics was really true that really great things happens only in a blink of an eye.
And i cherished every moment we have love <3

5 June 08<3

2008-06-03T22:56:00.000-07:00

WHOOTS! yup just booked out of leadership camo last night! HAHA i was super shag at the end of it but well i recovered after a long night of sleep. HEHE well, went for canoe gym training on monday morning and guess what i got to rush to leadership camp right after gym training with NO FOOD. The canoe team people in cypher were really hungry and we can't do anything or buy food because the TOOK BOTH OUR WALLET AND HANDPHONE. Alright but gym training was awesome and the seriously training is getting harder and harder. We got to do 45 pull ups for guys and 35 for girls now and increase in the running distance plus sprint set and then gym. YUPYUP Bath and headed for leadership camp without FOOD! GOD we were all so hungry. Leadership camp was alright la. But i was tired and slpy! Oh we have to come out with a proposal for an event and guess what my team WON! WHOOOOOOOO so i was the OIC and we took charge of everything hahah IT WAS A SUCCESS BUT A STRESSFUL EXPERIENCE. Because the advisors and main comm are over there watching us plan. And the even comment that it was exellent! YAY!!! HAHA the feelingwas really awesome. I swear without my HP i can't even text or call her and I MISS HER BADLY LIKE REALLY REALLY BAD! HEHE so i booked out of camp at around 9 plus and met love and tee and headed off to MAC. and the rest is too be LEFT UNKNOWN! HAHA But i was a HAPPY MAN LAST NIGHT GETTING TO SEE HER! YAY!!!! HAHA shhh oh well i'm OUT!

PS i cherished you and every moment we had. I LOVE YOU HONEY!

4 June 08<3

2008-05-31T22:26:00.000-07:00

YES YES YES!!! Finally got my wireless worked. Took me hell loads of trouble. ASS! Anyway, yesterday i went for canoe training and we kinda thought that situation will be the same as last week which we only had 10 mins to paddle due to the bad weather. Oh well, we were wrong and we did paddle dor awhile. HAHA all of them took t2 becis hairul ask to and ben and hairul wants me to get t1 so i did. Ben let me use the better paddle and then headed for my sexy boat and down to the water. Then paddle and paddle haha i swear t1 can be faster then t2 but my techni isn't there yet. We all hardly go striaght so we need to stop.
We tried T resuce too. HAHA so i capsize and the tried to save me hahaha i swear the T resuce is more like i'm resucing myself. Its just like using their boat to support mine and just do to let the water out. HAHA then after that i did my strokes as the T2s are all in paired and i'm the lonely one hahaha so i paddle and ben and the rest of the seniors shouted " NIC! LEAN YOUR BODY FORWARD AND PUSH AS HARD AS YOU CAN!" so i tried. And they shouted "YES! PUSH! NICE ONE MAN!" HAHA at that moment i really thought YES i've made it and i promise someone i will let her see me paddle and i thought all my hardwork sweat and pain its all worthy!NOW I NEED TO PRACTICE HARD AND POLISH MY SKILL AND AIM FOR ANY COMPETITION! Yup but i guess i injuried my muscles due to training and my self training at home. It s hurting real bad and i gym training tomorrow AND LEADERSHIP CAMP! see how busy life can be in poly! HAHA BUT ITS FUN! I slept till 12plus today and i guess i've not been sleeping till this late for a long long time. HAHA I PON SCHOOL ON FRIDAY! haha it was ok i guess BUT I WAS A HAPPY MAN! HAA SHH.... OUT

1 June 08 <3
i love u still and the feelings i had for you had never fade a tiny bit even how many times i fell.

2008-05-30T04:13:00.000-07:00

I'M A HAPPY MAN TODAY!

THE FIRST TIME IS ALWAYS THAT SPECIAL!

2008-05-29T07:22:00.000-07:00

i'm fighting my way out but still, i'm trying so hard
its never easy to look at you and not face the fact
i loved you and i still love you so much...
right now, i could only shut my mouth and just take care of you.
all i want to see is your happiness and go for what you want.

PS I LOVE YOU!

2008-05-29T03:14:00.000-07:00

WHOOT! Back from school and today is one of my earliest day ever reaching home at this time. Oh well, i'm shifting real soon and i mean REAL SOON! like tomorrow! HAHAH yeryer its true. So i have to come back early to pack all my massive clothes and stuff. Oh btw, school was quite ok la. Normal days, nothing much to do though. Well, least the faci made the class laugh with some cold jokes la. HAHA not bad! "Wah Uni student earn money put under the bed ah?" HAHA super random! Yup yesterday was my first time going ove to my new house to take a look and fixing my newly bought wardrobe. I swear i kill 90% of my brain cells trying to fix it! Super COMPLICATED DUDE! But i manage it so yeah! Oh well, i gotta start packing man! OUT!

Choo says happy packing to me so i'm gonna smile and pack my stuff hahaha!

29 May 08:)

2008-05-27T07:29:00.000-07:00

YO!
HAHA just came back from school and canoe training. I won't say that i'm feeling very tired because i thought that canoe training is getting easier to me each week. Well, i guess i'm getting numb to the basic training now. Hmmm... today we actually build up out team canoe spirit haha and guess what it all started because of me who asked the boys to do with one of the new guy who hasen't finish his 35 pull ups and we did it with me to motivate him then the girls followed and i guess we all had fun as a team for the first time. Yup so thats about it kinda lazy yo.

OUT!

27 May 08

oh one thing! TEE YOU CONDITIONED ME AND YOU STILL LEAVE YOUR HAND PRINT BEHIND!!!